Texting Au ft. y/n and my Best friends

it's okay to not be okay

Jai :
Do you ever feel like you're just slowly drifting away from everyone? Like you try to be around more and even though they assure you it's fine, you can't help but feel guilty for not being there and failing your part as a friend/best friend. And then the occurring fear of being alone continuously nags at you so you unintentionally distance yourself from them. Finding it hard to formulate correct words to comfort your friends when they're sad? Do you ever find yourself crying more than you should and playing it cool in front of others but you just want someone to notice that you aren't okay. Life's been pretty rough lately and my best friends are going through things as well, I don't wanna make them worried so I always assure them I'm okay. I miss the days where we'd joke and laugh at literally nothing and we'd still have a good time together. It's hard trying to keep it all together and I'm struggling to hold the happy facade. And worse April 1st, 2016 is always on my mind and it hurts to relive that day in my memory all the time. I hate it here bro. At this point I'm just numb to everything. I know a few of my friends might see this so
Hi guys,
I'm sorry I'm not there like I used to be. I really miss you guys and I'm so so sorry that all I send is a " hi" . I know that me being busy isn't a reason on why I'm always inactive and for that it's my fault. I know some of you are going through some tuff things as well and I'm sorry for failing in comforting you as I should. I'm thankful for having you guys as my friends, scratch that, as my family, my partners in crime, my crack buddies and most importantly my sisters. I'll do my best to be there more, I love y'all 💜🥺.
I'll also try to update when I sort things out, I apologize, Bye Bye 👋🏽