Clifford's POV
Kakauwi ko lang dito sa condo galing sa bahay ni Hazel. Hazel ... yan nalang ang tawag ko sakanya.. naisip ko na ayoko na ng kung ano-anong endearments! Yun na nga. 4:00 ng madaling araw eh naisipan kong pumunta sakanila. I don't know, i try to go to the bar and drown myself in beer which is i actually do when i have a problem but now.. she is the first thing who came up in my mind. 'Gusto ko syang makita' Yan lang ang nangigibabaw sakin sa mga oras na yon. I don't know what the hell is happening to me. Tsk!
I took a quick shower, dressed myself and jumped in my bed. I'm really tired and my eyes want to close right now so i let it. Pagsara ko palang ng mata ko ay nag flash ang eksena na nangyari palang kanina.
'Herbie hugging me tight crying and begging me to love her again. And just a sec i found myself on the ground and my lips is fcking bleeding!'
"Kaya pala hindi mo naihatid ang girlfriend mo eh naglalandi ka dito! Fck Clifford! Don't be unfair with this two innocent girls!" sigaw nya sakin. Hinawakan ko ang dumudugong labi ko at dahan-dahang tumayo bago hinarap si kuya. Yeah, my 'oh so perfect' brother just punched me in the face!
"I not flirting with her! At.. bakit? Ano naman sayo kung gawin ko nga yon? Nagseselos ka? Bakit? Dahil inagaw mo sya sak--" susuntukin nya ako ulit ng mapigilan ko ang kamay nya at sya ang malakas kong sinuntok.
"What the hell is happening here?!" there.. My dad .. Dan's savior.. "Clifford, are you starting a fight again? Sinasabi ko na nga ba! Dapat talaga hindi ka na inimbita pa dito dahil puro gulo lang ang dala mo! You're really never going to change, aren't you?" ako nanaman ang masama..
"Yeah, you're right. I'm always the wrong one, black sheep, the dissapointment, embarrasment.. What else dad?" bahagya akong tumingin kay Dan na for sure eh abot langit na ang ngiti dahil ligtas nanaman sya. Pero yon ang akala nya "Eh si Dan? My perfect brother.. Always in the right path, the worthy one, the special.. Lagi mo akong tinatanong kung bakit hindi ko gayahin si Dan? Well, here is my answer dad. I will never ever going to be like him. Dahil kung pagiging katulad nya ang kailangan kong gawin para matanggap nyo ako? Hindi nalang. I rather choose to be myself hated by you than being him following you're damn orders even if he really don't want to!" akma na akong susuntukin ng dad but he stopped.
"Don't. You dare laid a hand on my son Nickolas!" nagulat nalang kami ng biglang magsalita si mama. "You get through with that, you will loose me instead" matapang na sabi ni mama at tumabi sakin. My mom really is my savior.
"Anak, umuwi ka na. Salamat sa pagpunta mo dito kahit na ang ilan dito eh hindi masayang nakita ka. Go on, drive safely" she gave me a peck on the cheek and mouthed im sorry before she head on the house without even looking at dad and Dan. Hindi narin naman ako nag-aksaya pa ng panahon at lumabas na ng bahay at pinaharurot ko na ang sasakyan ng makasakay ako.
Napagdesisyunan kong wag ng sabihin pa kay Hazel ang nangyaring 'yon dahil ayaw kong mag-alala pa sya sakin. My life is a complete mess! Ayokong mapasama pa sya don. I took a deep sigh and close my eyes again. May 2 hours pa ako para matulog bago pumasok ng school.
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After 2 hours ay automatic naman na dumilat ang mata ko. Pakiramdam ko kulang pa ang tulog ko pero kailangan kong pumasok ng school. My mom taught me how to be responsible enough in my duties and i think i still got it on me. Mabilis naman akong kumilos na sa mga dapat kong gawin and when im done i immediately went out of my condo and headed to the elevator. Paglabas ko ng elevator ay tumungo naman ako sa parking lot at sumakay na sa kotse ko at pinaharurot na ito.
