You know when people call you "fat", "anorexic", "stupid', "dumb", "annoying", "bugging", "exagerate" etc. they don't think about the fact that they are hurting you, that your confidence is running out of air... they only think about acting cool in front of their friends. I know what I'm saying. everyday people call me "too skinny", "stupid", "bugging'. I cry, I pout (song reference "Santa Clause is Coming to Town" :) ) even though I know it's not worthy, that their words shouldn't matter, but I just can't take it. I never seem to get used to people around me. Since 7th grade started that is what I feel.
By the way, I'm Sma. A girl with confidence problems, with judgmental friends.
Even my friends call me "annoying", "stupid", "ugly". I know they are joking, but I cannot take it as a joke, it does hurt, a lot.
I'm not so deep into puberty, if you know what I mean, so people call me "flat". Like, they never saw me naked, but they still comment. Like what people? Do you think your cooler if you do that? I believe that's the only think that does not really affect me. Well a bit, but yeah...
I sometimes think to myself I'm ugly, but somewhere inside I know I'm not. I somehow know I'm beautiful. People call me beautiful, but friends call me ugly...
Do you ever fear there will not be enough bandages for your heart? I sometimes, rarely, do. I sometimes feel like I'll break down.
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Hi! This is my first chapter. Hope you like it. Comment and like please!
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RandomThis story is about my feelings in general school/highschool. You might relate to it. It combines anxiety, sadness with happiness and confidence rising. Thank you!
