The day of the funeral. I was not crying, I had cried enough the past week. Lethal, Dee and Junior had been checking on me every minute. But I barely spoke, I didn't not partake in the funeral arrangements in any way. They all asked if I was okay and I'll just nod.
I was not okay. I was angry at everything, at myself for leaving that day and I was angry at the so called God. After all the suffering I've been through, he takes the only form of happiness I had. Tim was to young to die, we should have grown old together and had our chance at happiness.
"Kim it's time to go" Lethal said. I struggled to stand up cause I really hadn't been eating. We arrived at the church and everyone was already there.
Lethal made me sit besides my friends. Dee, Nat and the C's were all sobbing. I know they were not really crying for Tim but for me instead. Junior was hugging Vic, I hadn't seen Vic through out all this and I was sure he was hurting. The Vandals were there also.
"Hey my name is Bone" a guy said. I recognized him from Lethal's gang, he was there that day. I nodded at him. "I'm sorry for your loss, undertaker used to talk a lot about you" he said softly and I nodded once again. I had come to notice that these guys refered to Tim as undertaker. They all have weird names and I thought Lethal weapon is a weird name, this one is called Bone.
The funeral was going by swiftly, as swiftly as it can get with Lethal as the pastor, is it legal?
"I would like to call my niece Kimberly to say a few words and I have to thank Tim for letting me meet this lovely girl" Lee said. I don't know if I wanted to go up there but I had to do it for Tim. I stood up and went to the podium. From there I could see everyone my friends, the Vandals, Lee's gang and I could even see Yolanda and her crew or whatever they were. There was Tim's photo in front, I recognized the photo as the one I took of him the day at the game park when he bought me the camera. He was smiling and his hands were reaching out trying to snatch the camera. I felt tears well up in my eyes and I quickly wiped them away. I looked at Lethal and he gave me a slight nod.
"I still can't believe he's gone, he can't be. He made me promise to be strong and move on when he was gone, but I never thought he would be gone so soon. It's hard to be strong and I wish I hadn't made that promise. Tim always went out of his way to make me feel happy, safe, protected and loved. I took it all for granted, I didn't deserve him. If only I had listened when he told me not to leave, then maybe he'll still be alive" I said my voice cracking up and Lethal moved closer. "I'm sorry Timothy. I love you, I will always love you. Rest in peace"
Lethal whispered in my ear "it's not your fault".
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The funeral came to an end and I was sitting alone in my room. I had finally accepted that he is gone. I felt nothing at all, the love of my life is gone. Who would have thought this is how it would end. I always thought our love was cliche and in those cliche love stories everything ended in happiness. But here I was alone and miserable as ever.
He is no longer living and I feel nothing but,
Emptiness.
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