So the day after that night, I heard rumors about us. Me specifically.
A rumor that you've successfully done your game plan. As cliche and cringy as it seems but those overrated stories of being the subject on a bet was I guess happened to me. 😢
I don't know if our classmates knew that I am the victim, I guess some of them knew but the others don't. Or maybe they knew but they just kept their mouth shut. I really don't know.
I just knew that time I was badly hurt. I felt like everyone conspires against me even those person whom I call close friends. I felt betrayed because someone told me that my close friends knew about it but they didn't bother to tell me. My heart literally torn into pieces, I was so hurt to the point that I was able to eat pieces of fried chicken all by myself.
That even my nagger mother didn't bothered me when there were times that I chose not to eat and lock myself in my room every night. I knew she felt something happen but she never asked.
You know the feeling when you felt like your heart was crushed and it bleeds and you pray to God that if it's possible for him to just get your heart out of your system and heal your pain.
The kind of pain when you want to cry so hard but you can't because someone might hear you so you just shout and cry on your pillows just to ease the pain. That everytime you tried to eat, your tears just rolled down your eyes like flowing river. That everytime I tried to stop the stupid tears I cannot help but to let it flow eventhough I may looked stupid in front of our customer in our sari2x store, I just don't care.
But even how hurt I was, I never confronted you that time because I'm scared to face your answers. I don't know if I can take it, because deep inside me is saying that the rumors were true.
I never contacted you since then and you did the same. (#Redflag1 it's just that after the night of confession just ended on the same day proving to me that the rumors were true)
The next day as I went to our school to process my papers for college, I just knew from one of our classmates that you'll have your celebration at your house.
Everyone was invited but you never invited me like I was never even your classmate nor a girlfriend.
I got hurt and mad at the same time because this only proves that the rumors were true. (red flag#2 for me)
So I asked one of our classmate a favor, if she can just take some things with her and to give it to you. (those are just small things that you've give me but I value a lot ). I'm not sure if our classmate just forgot to give it to you or you returned it.
But anyway that same day you've called using a different number and asked me on a angry tone why I'm not answering your call.
Since I was mad at you I replied ,
"so now you're the one who got angry when Im supposed to be one who has the right to get angry? And hello I'm busy. I don't have my phone with me all the time."
Then you said "what's the problem?"
They said you've been crying.
Then I replied "I know you knew what it is."
Then you said "okay let talk about it tomorrow. Let's meet at school."
