The Real Life of Me

Chapter 7

When I first went to see my cousins, Keisa and Kelsey it was like meeting strangers. I hadn't see them in almost five years. We quickly became close. At the end of the summer we were told we had to start school in Little Pond because their wasn't enough money to bring us back. Marcus and I were suppose to go back out west in October but we didn't. Grade six was long and lonely for me because I had a hard time trusting after all of what I had been through. In October we were told we weren't going back yet and then one day we got off the bus and everybody was there just standing around. My nan waved me over by poppy's truck and then my mom came out from behind it. I didn't want to let go of her, all I could do was hugged her and cry. We ended up staying here and Kevin stayed out west. In grade seven I made five great friends, Natasha, Terra, Morgan, Allison, and Taylor. Before the end of grade seven Allison moved away and so did Terra. On chirstmas that year my dad's parents got me a kitten for christmas, well technecally I got him a little before christmas. He was white and orange. When nan took me to get the kitten the lady told us the cat was a girl but in the next few weeks we found out she was wrong. I loved him none the less. I named him Carmal and he was my world. He only liked me and when I was around, it was if no one else exsited. I've never had that kind of connection with an animal before. Then a year later in grade eight, on thanksgiving day he went missing after going outside for a bit. He normally would come scratch at the door after an hour or two but he never did that day. Everyone told me he would be back, but he was missing for days. Then days turned into weeks then into months and then he just never came home. Everyone serched the area high and low but he was never found and no one even found any sign of him dead or sick.  I blamed my self for the longest time and I finally had experenced my first heartbroken devastation.    In grade eight I got really close with a new friend I made, Kearia and we did almost everything together. That year at christmas Kevin broke up with my mom over text like a coward.  I found out just before my fourteenth birthday when I found my mom crying alone in the living room. I told her it didn't bother me and that was an under statment because I was over joyed! She was hurt and I knew Marcus was not going to take it as well as I did. She wanted my advice on how to tell him. I told her I would talk to him first to help her out. In the begining of the summer mom and Marcus and I moved up the road from her parents. A few days after moving in her cat who in the past I couldn't stand cause she was evil started to trust me.  We soon became close and she started living in my room because my other two cats bothered her. She was like me in almost every way. After I had lost Carmal I never thought I would be close with an animal again. She became my best friend.  There was alot of drama in the summer of grade eight. I had my grandmother on my fathers side randomly blow up at me and Kearia's dad started some stuff. We tried the best we could to help each other trough the drama and we eventually did. That summer changed both of us but it made Kearia very depressed and negitive. She turned into a bully and a controlling friend. Kearia would flip at me if I wanted to do something with one of the other girls but I still stayed friends with her. When she got mad at me she would tell everyone she was going to beat me up and tell eveyone eveything I had told her in convidence. In the end I was always the one to apolagise. In grade nine she only got more jelous and negitive but I never said a word to her about how I felt. Everytime I tried to talk to her about my problems she made it about her. The summer before grade ten, Kevin came home and I had to go down to see him. He made Marcus and I go for a drive with him out to woods. The whole time he was spiting out nothing but lies. Running his mouth about my mother. Marcus believed every lie that came out of Kevin's mouth.  Anyway when I started grade ten my depression and anxiety got so bad that after three days of school I was thinking about dropping out. I balded my eyes out ever moment I was awake. Mom and I talked about how I needed my education, and althought it wouldn't be easy we would make it through it. I went to a phycoligist for a few weeks until she decided I also needed to see a phyciatrist. On the day I went to her we decided it was time to try medication along with my thearapy. After a couple of weeks I started going to school when everyone was already in class and would leave just before they got out for lunch. I would go to the back room of the libary and work quietly. Then after a few more weeks I started working in the resource room.  Just before second semester I had a meeting with my teachers and we decided to try me in my actual classrooms. I finished the year in my classrooms and hoped that the next two years would fly by. I had to start medication in the begining of the summer and continued to have my doses uped until I was at a hundred milligram capsules. My cousins,Keisa and Kelsey were at our school now. They spent lunch with us everyday and every off class we were together.