Save Yourself, Queen Pin

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As I'm flying down I-465. I was headed to his momma house. I knew where all his people stayed. I called his phone over and over no answer. Only if I was to pick up the first time. Only if I was to respond, or be with him he wouldn't be in this position right now. I blamed myself. I turned down the avenue going 65, speeding. To pull up and see 5 police cars and 2 ambulances. The block was definitely hot. And this where he was at. My first thoughts was somebody was plotting following him caught my loved one lacking. "Dammmnnn, Mann." My bestfriend said silently. I looked over to see her trying to call my dude bro, she was messing around with to get some news I hope. Anything for me to know what was up.

I jumped out the car, and ran up to the house. I wasn't ready to hear no bad news. I wanted him to be okay! I wanted him to see my face! I ran into an officer that tried to stop me, saying "this is a crime scene if you don't live here I'm going to ask you to leave." "I stay here move, thanks." I said. I kept going. As I rushed to the porch I saw blood trails, blood everywhere. Me piecing this all together, he had to get hit at the door. Walking out, they light my dude up. The post said "Get well." NOT "REST UP!" I had hope. It was a blood scene. "Moms, Ms. Shawn, Moms.." I yelled throughout the house. Nothing. Blank. I checked his room. No phone, no bag, no keys. I ran up the 2 flight of stairs. "HELLO! Yoooo." I head sniffles, "Hey baby I'm in here." A soft voice said. "Ms. Shawn, mommmaaa what happened, is he okay?" I tried to hold my tears but I couldn't and I wouldn't. I genuinely cared about him. My heart was broke right now. My bestfriend stayed in the car so I wasn't gone be long. Plus I had to get to the hospital. "I don't know, you know son don't never let nobody know where we stay. All I know his he was saying he was going somewhere soon as he open the door. I heard loud shots, gun shots. I heard about 5 until I heard the front door slam." Ms. Shawn said crying. "Oh my gosh, he was shot! They really tried to take his life in his home." I said out loud. "Babygirl he wouldn't want you here, he wouldn't want you on the scene nobody know what's going on, who's watching who's lurking. I want you to go to the hospital. I want you to keep me updated. I have to stay here for detectives. But be strong for me and son especially him, be by his side! I love y'all, go.."

I hugged her tightly, as if I was trying to take the pain from her and put it all on me so I could curry it for the both of us. I walked down the stairs. I opened the door, to all flashy red white and blue lights. I tried not to step in his blood, to track. I tried not to step in his blood in respect. My heart was torn. I got in the car shut the door. And placed my head on the steeling wheel. "Bestfriend, I know you don't want to talk and I hate to be the one who telling you this.. but homie pronounced dead on his way to the hospital. They did all they can to try and save his life. When they got to the hospital he was already gone. His bro's are there, and they'll like to see you." I turned to her. "Why now? What do I tell his momma? How could I have saved myself and not my dude in war in this King Pin?" Thought surrounded my mind. Surrounded my head. The night went silent. My heart fell to my feet. My breath was taken. "May my love Rest In Peace, in Name of A G. Salute." I blew a kiss I Godly crossed and blessed my body, and sent one of to heaven for my love that I was not gone ever reunite with.