The Cure To My Pain ✔️

21. I'm way past denying it

Song suggestion: Fallin' all in you by Shawn Mendes or 18 by One Direction.

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The thumbing of footsteps reach my ears and I turn my neck around to look at the stairs. Lina comes into view, wearing a sundress with a blue denim jacket. I turn my whole body around on the couch to get a better look at her.

I smile and ask her,"Something special?"

"Um kinda, I'm going....on a date," she says with a casual shrug.

I raise my eyebrows in surprise,"Is it a first..?"

She nods her head and says,"Yeah, I met her last week at a cafe."

I grin and ask her excitedly,"So, you are gonna start dating again?"

"Nope, when she took my number I made it very clear that I'm not looking for anything serious. She probably thought about it for the whole week and then texted me yesterday." she walks ahead and stands in front of me.

I sigh with a smile,"Fair enough, enjoy your date."

She smiles back,"I will. And I want you to not think about yesterday when you meet with Asher later."

I smile sadly,"How am I not supposed to think about it? Lina, Rob, the person who practically owns our half of the gang right now is Ash's father. Ash is bound to know about me and once he does everything will be how it was two months back or maybe worse?"

She shakes her at me sternly,"I did not say anything yesterday because you were really upset. But now let me get this straight, you are not obliged to tell Asher about anything. If he is really your friend, he will wait untill you are ready to tell that to him. Why does Rob being his father has to change what's between you guys? Look, I don't know the whole truth but you said he doesn't like his father. So the case is over, there's not much to think about. Nothing has changed Lee."

She places her hand on my shoulder and gives it a squeeze. I put my own on her and smile,"Okay, now go. You are gonna be late."

She places a kiss on my forehead and walks towards the door. She opens the door and turns around,"I forgot, enjoy your date too."

Before I could say anything she walks out closing the door behind her. I just huff and roll my eyes. I turn around and pay attention to the movie I was watching. I totally lost what was happening so I decide to just shut it. It's 4 pm and I've still 2 hours to kill before going to the park. I hope Ash makes it today, I just want to see him. I just want to make sure that everything is alright, I just want to assure myself that I have not messed things up by not telling him about myself. I want to know that I'm right and the situation is wrong. That I'm not to blame in this. For once in my life I'm not blaming myself and I don't want it to cost me the relationship I have with Asher.

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I breathe out a long sigh and walk into the park. I'm wearing the same outfil I chose yesterday. It didn't take me long to be here, it was a fifteen minute walk and very easy to find. At first it doesn't exactly look like a park except the fencing and the iron gate at the entrance. It is surrounded by trees making it hidden from outside.

As I walk further I notice that there are a lot of people here. Especially kids with their parents and some older people just sitting on the benches. There is a playing area with swings, slides, all of that is in a pit of sand making it safer for kids. All the children are there with the parents sitting on the benches outside the pit. There is this elevated area where I see some teenage kids just hanging out. I smile at the scene, it's a weird kind of calmness.