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"So you'll be leaving tomorrow. It's going to be a life changing moment. I'm really going to miss you so much love." Aunt Elena comments.
Silence...
"I know you don't want this, but it's for the best Charlene, your dad is the best person to take care of you, he is willing and you already have a family that loves you before they even meet you." she adds
Silence.....
What? I know I'm being a bitch but I don't feel like talking to her right now. You can't blame me. Can you?
"Baby I know you are angry at me right now but please talk to me. I'm doing this for you, I want you to have a family, I don't want you to go to an orphanage yet you could have a family that loves you, a dad that loves you and wants to take care of you." Aunt Elena now starts to cry. I feel guilty but I still don't want to talk.
"I want to have a clear conscience knowing you are happy, even your mom would do the same for you if she were here. "she continues to cry.
"I'm sorry aunt." I go over to her and hug her. " sobbing in her arms. "I know I'm being inconsiderate but I'm just scared Aunt Elena, I don't want to leave you when you need me now. I'm scared of what California has for me, what if my new family doesn't like me, what if school sucks and I have no friends, what if Kayla has found another best friend and doesn't love me anymore like before, what if...., " I sniff, I'm now crying like a little baby. Maybe I'm over reacting. I hug her tightly like my life depended on it.
"Shhh, it's okay sweetheart, everything is going to be okay. It's alright to be scared but I promise you it's going to be okay, you'll like it, don't over think okay? And don't worry about me, we can't change anything now. Just make sure you call me everyday okay?" my aunt tells me.
We stay there for a while talking about anything and everything, enjoying the company of each other knowing this may be the last time.
"Okay, go finish packing up your stuff, your dad will be here tomorrow morning, good night baby, I love you. "Aunt Elena says.
"Night Aunt, I love you too." I give her a quick kiss on the cheek and run upstairs to my room to get done packing.
After about three hours I'm done packing everything. I plop myself on my bed and stare at the ceiling. The reality of everything finally sinks in. My aunt is dying, I'm moving in with my dad who I have only known for the past two months, I'm leaving the country and home that I have known all my life, I think about leaving my school and starting senior year somewhere else, my friends, not that I had many or any close ones anyway. It won't just be me and my aunt alone anymore, I have siblings and a step mother, my step mother. I really miss my mom, maybe if she were here things would be different, maybe I would be happy. I wipe the tears off my face and close my eyes, allowing darkness to take over.
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"Charlene baby please hurry, you'll be late for your flight " my aunt yells from downstairs.
I glance at my room one more time and rush out carrying the last of my luggage, my dad stands there patiently waiting for me. I take my things to the car and come back to say bye one last time to my aunt, it feels like I'm saying bye forever, maybe I am. It's just too sad.
After a long time of hugging, crying, alot of words and promises, my father and I finally head out. As my father pulls out of my aunt's drive way, I take a look at the house one last time, memories of my 17 years here flooding my mind.
The car ride feels so awkward, the silence is so uncomfortable. It's not the first time I have been alone with my dad but it's not something I'm used to, conversation doesn't come easy. It's not like we don't have what to talk about, we do, it's just that I don't want to talk to him just yet, I don't want to let him in my life so easily after all these years that he has been absent.
I know I shouldn't blame him for what happened but I can't help it. The person I should blame is six feet underground and the other dying, so why not not make the living face my wrath.
I hate everything, I hate my mum for leaving me alone, I hate it that she didn't tell my dad about me, I hate my aunt for deciding to leave me too, I hate that my parents made a mistake and I was the result. I hate this change, I generally just hate life right now.
"It'll be okay Princess, please stop crying." my dad tells me
I didn't even realise I was crying till now.
I wipe my tears and pull out my phone and go to instagram to leave my best friend a quick text telling her I'm on my way. I put my phone back in my back pack and lean my head against the car window allowing sleep to take over.
I don't know what Carlifornia has for me, I'm not ready but I'm willing to give it a shot. I'm not happy but I promised. I just hope brighter days come.
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