The Baby Project

Chapter 7- I Needed You

A/N hey you guys! I'm so sorry for the long wait! Next chapter will be next week. Thank you guys so much for sticking with me! Love ya❤️
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Heading to my first class, I try to keep my head up high and act like nothing is wrong. The girls are getting squirmy seeing that or rather sensing that William was not there last night. He always holds them and sings them the same song every night.

I really hope they behave until we get home. I've only been doing this solo for less than 24 hours and I already feel like the superwoman Alica Keys was songs about. I got me and the kids to school really early so Im the only one in the baby class at the moment. "Ally, is everything alright?" That question is so overloaded and not many people realize that. Like Bazzi said "I don't think I'm okay, and that's okay" I look up at Ms. Donnel and reply "Yes ma'am, just a rough night" she shakes her head and comes and takes a sit next to me "I know William didn't stay with you last night, he was at my home, drunk, he didn't want me to tell you, but it's best you know"

So now we are getting drunk? Wow. Another reason to be upset with him. That's the third strike. First was when he was pissed off at me for no reason, Second was when he assumed that I was flirting with Adam, and Third is now him skipping out on our kids and getting drunk. At this point, I really feel like giving the kids back and failing this class.

But I'm not gonna let my feelings get in between the love I have for these six kids. I love them with my heart and they need me now more than ever with William being 'gone' for the time being. "It's fine Ms. Donnel, I'll talk with him later.
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As the school day passes on, I leave my fourth period early and head to pick up the boys. When I get there, I see William heading to their class from the other side of the building. "Leave" is what I tell him as he reaches earshot "You've put these kids and me through enough so turn around and go find your drinking buddies, hell, maybe even go join an AA"

I know I'm being hard, but I've got no choice but to put up a wall now. William looks hurt and taken back by my statement. I guess he thought I would run into his arms and forgive him. Nope, not this time. I knock softly on the boys' classroom door. Their teacher sees me and heads to go and get the boys.

"You can't keep me from them, their my kids too" I try and hold back the tears to be strong for my kids. "You lost that right when you left yesterday and didn't tell me where you were going or if you were safe! I need you William, and you weren't there."

With that, I turn to see my babies coming. "Leave before they see you, this isn't the time nor the place" he leaves, and I feel like breaking down but I'm the one who told him to go, and he left. Turning and giving my full attention to my boys "hey babies! Are you ready for lunch?"

"Yeah mommy, we ready" Seth replies I tell the boys to lock arms and to walk beside me. Hopefully we can get to lunch in one piece.
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"Otherside"

I been waiting wide awake
For the waves to come and take
Take me right to you
One hundred bottles of the good shit
Couldn't even bring you back
What am I to do?

Feel like I'm circling a drain
All I see is the remains
Of an ugly truth
One hundred models I could follow
All the way to hell and back
But they can't replace you

I was puttin' on for you like a jersey
What I didn't know then couldn't hurt me
Never thought that you'd go and do me dirty
Left me in the cold but on the inside I was burning

But that's just the way it goes
Wish that I could have control
Everybody dies alone
And I ain't dead yet

Say my prayers
But I lost faith a long time ago
Dream nightmares
I guess we're getting used to losing hope
Guess we're losing hope

I don't even wonder why you don't answer
When I call your name
Are you on the other side? Will you save us?
Or will you run away?

I'm still waiting wide awake
For the waves to come and take
Take me right to you
One hundred vials of denial
I know they won't bring you back
What am I to do?

You're my alibi and motive
When I'm lying to myself
What an ugly truth
We're no strangers to the flame
We will never be the same
If we make it through
And we can make it through

My back is up against the wall
But I used to feel invincible
Yeah it was us against the world
But somehow, someway, the tables turned

I remember back then
Played my cards but you were my best hand
Still you keep me guessing
Wonder if I'll ever get the message

Say my prayers
But I lost faith a long time ago
Dream nightmares
I guess we're getting used to losing hope
Guess we're losing hope

I don't even wonder why you don't answer
When I call your name
Are you on the other side? Will you save us?
Or will you run away?

Are you on the other side? Will you save us?
Or will you run away?