The pain O.O JIKOOK O.O

stop hurting yourself

'A crowd of faces
circling round,
Not one of them can
understand you'
-Laura jane
(Song is up)
I had just sat down in one of the empty beds put the whiskey on the table took a little car that already had everything like cotton and disinfecting liquids but first I had to drink up at least half of the whiskey. I took my shirt of slowly and with twissers I started to pull the bullet out.

" ahhhhhhhHAAAHA!!!"

I couldn't stop shouting so I took a napkin to bite on it. I felt light headed after pulling the bullet completely out.

I saw the guys coming inside the room looking at me since already took the bullet out I poured a half a bottle of alcohol in the wound to disinfect it. I didn't want to shout so I didn't but I did throw things around the room I was looking for the needle so that I could close the wound.

I couldn't my site was blurry I could barely walk I was going to pass out. At least I passed out with a dry chuckle. Jungkook was holding me from falling on the floor thtas the moment my vision went completely blank

"Guys what are we going to do."

"Bring him over here Jungkook he already got the bullet out we just need to finish closing the wound."

jin was waiting for Jungkook to put me on the bed. they were looking for all the material to close my wound. I don't like it I was completely out but I could feel the hands touching me it disgust me I didn't even know how but the moment jin started to work with the needle I woke up.

my voice was barely visible to the ear they were still trying to close the wound but I don't like it.

"Don't touch me.....Don't touch me!!!"

it hurts my waist hurts but I got the courage to sit straight on the bed took the scissors that was on the table and pointed it at Seokjin's neck. they stopped moving but the pain I felt was to much

" leave... get out of here give me that ill do it myself."

" Jimin-ah we are trying to help you.... you lost to much blood go back to laying down ok."

"Please just leave I can do it alone"

the guys had left but Jungkook was still sitting by my side looking at me while I was sowing my skin up.

" why are you still here Jungkook you can leave now-"

" I'm not leaving you it was my fault you got hurt when I was trying to help. there was someone trying to point at you from your side I just ran to help"

Why would Jungkook try to risk his live for someone like me I've only known him for a week.

"How are you so chill right now Jimin your sowing your body as if it was paper but I don't see pain in your body or face."

"People say practice makes perfect I guess there right... look at my body Jungkook I have scars in every corner its funny cause I haven't received a bullet about 2 years ago I feel like I'm back to the hard painful days."

I looked at Jungkook's eyes when I was done talking I could see he wanted to ask something.

" Say it....what do you want to ask go ahead I feel like I should answer you."

"Ok.... but there a lot of questions Jimin-ah...so How many bullets' have you received before and can you tell me what happened to you when you were little? Also if you could explain all your scars."

I was impressed those were some good questions I was looking at him then sighed to think of the simple answer that could go straight to the point.

" you basically just want to know everything of me Kookie."

Jungkook was impressed with the name I gave him.

" I'm not mean I can be a nice person I just dont trust people that easily it takes time...I've been. Getting used to being alone.... ok I have about 20 scars all of them are because of fights I've been through. It's not like I was born as a fighter I had to learn just like I'm teaching you.... let's just say my teacher wasn't as nice as I am to you jungkook. I'm lucky that I used to want to be a doctor so I just cured my self all along that's why this doesn't hurt that much."

Right now I had finished with my wound and put a bandage on it gently. I didn't even notice Jungkook was now making me lay down on the bed so that he could work with the small bruises and cuts I got from falling of the bike.

"You don't need to help with those cuts there not that deep there just scratches it wont kill me you know.'

Jungkook apparently didn't care what I was saying so he kept working with my scratches.

"Have you ever dated someone before Hyung. I don't have to answer if you don't want to it's not a big deal I guess."

"I don't have time to fall in love Jungkook you know what my reasons are but I did like he feeling of your lips if im going to be honest I haven't been hugged in a very long time it felt nice I guess."

I don't know what is wrong with me I'm being to nice to him last time was like this ,y life turned in to shit I don't want to hurt him but deep down I know I need him more than he needs me right now don't like that feeling it makes me feel weak.

"Hyung your not the only one that has a hard live look at me for example this wasn't just past down to me I saw my father kill and be killed in front of my own eye That's why I'm just the boss of this place that is the reason I need you to teach... I'm done so I'm going to let you rest and Jimin-ah I thinks your lips are soft I liked them."

once Jungkook left I started to think and noticed what I'm feeling. I think I'm wiped by this childish shy but also manly guy that's not a good thing for me or him.

"Jimin you need to prepare yourself there is a hard road coming your way."