Reckless

Part five

Maya's POV

~1 month later~

Carl and I have been broken up for about a month now and we never talk unless we have to. I'm kinda upset that he hasn't tried to get me back, but I was the one who broke up with him, so I probably shouldn't be complaining.

I'm pretty lonely though. The only friend I have around my age is Beth, but she is always helping Judith.

Carl has definitely moved on though. He has almost hooked up with every girl here (there are a lot of girls and boys from Woodbury). It makes me sad that he moved on so fast, and I always here him with other girls because his cell is right across from mine. But the problem is that he always is flirting with girl right in front of me! I guess Carl has fixed his sex drive...

I have sort of moved on too. I have made out with a couple guys here but they always ask me to be there girlfriend, and I always say no. But there has been a couple guys who have come up and start touching me in ways I don't like, and when I tell them to stop they won't. But usually Carl has come up and pusses them off and scared them away so they don't bother me anymore. But never says anything to be about it afterwards.

I get up bright and early like I usually do and go outside and tell Rick I can keep watch. I sit in the watch tower for about an hour. Then Carl comes in "uh... hi" he says "hi, so... how have you been?" Well besides that I'm lonely and super depressed "ok, I guess" I say. Carl steps a bit closer and hands me something that is wrapped with an old piece of fabric. "I know it's around the time of your birthday, so I picked you up this on my last run. So happy 14th birthday! I hope you like it." I open the present and it's an comic and a bit stale chocolate bar.

"I love it." I say as I give him a hug, witch was kind of awkward. I let go and grab his hand. "I miss you" I say. Carl lets go of my hand "your the one who broke up with me. remember?" Carl turns around but I quickly pull in in for a long passionate kiss. Carl doesn't hesitate to kiss back. We are now having a full on make out session.

I start to unbutton his shirt while still kissing him. He then pulls mine off. We continue kissing as he pulls me up and places me on a ledge in the watch tower. He try's to unclip my bra as I quickly pull back realizing what had just happened. We look at each other's eyes for a second until Carl breaks the silence. "This... that was a mistake." he then quickly grabs his shirt and leaves as I say "ya, it was".

I don't even bother to put my shirt on. I just fall to the floor and start crying. I don't really know why. I knew I shouldn't of done that, but at the same time I miss him, but after all he has done to me I know I can't get back with him.

But I want to more then anything.