Stage Lover - Muke

13 - Not Anymore

Luke

"No! You don't understand! I'm worthless! Dancing was everything I was and now I'm nothing! Stop saying that everything is going to be ok because it won't!"

I kept yelling at Michael even though he didn't had the fault of everything. Tears streamed down my face and horrid sobs left my mouth, I felt nothing and everything at the same time

I wanted to hit the walls to the point of making holes in them, I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs and rip my hair out, but I also wanted to cuddle with Michael and cry everything out until I don't have anymore fluids in my body and I can't remember why I am crying

"Luke I know you're mad and you have all the right to be but doing this isn't going to help" suddenly I couldn't handle it anymore and I just broke, I couldn't make any sound besides sobs and my sight blurred with tears

I tried to wipe them out with my hands, I felt arms around me and a soft voice whispering in my ear lovely words in an attempt to calm me down. I just let the purple haired boy to comfort and kiss me between a bunch of Everything'll be okay's

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"You'll be ok on your own?" Mikey asked taking the car keys and leaning down to kiss me

"Yes, I'll be fine" I assured for 10th time today "Now go or you'll be late" I chuckled pushing him to the door

"We should move in together" He said in his way outside and I blushed thinking on what he just said

"Ye-yeah... W-we should" I said as confident as I could making Michael smirk before leaving the flat with an "I love you"

I stayed in the couch staring at the stupid blue plaster Michael choosed because they were out of white and blue's my favorite color, like if that would make things better. It's still a big thing that prevents me from doing what I love the most, the only thing I'm good at

What am I supposed to do now? Stay in this couch all day? Fucking awesome

You're not a hero, you're a liar, you're not a savior you're a vampire

I started to hear my ring tone somewhere in the room and I saw my cellphone placed in the coffee table.. IN THE OTHER SIDE OF THE ROOM

I sighed and stretched my arm like if somehow I'll develop superpowers and move my phone with my mind. I saw the pair of crutches that I haven't learned how to use, laying in the floor beside the couch

I picked them and proceed to carefully stand up, how this tiny things are supposed to carry my weight? I gave my first step without falling, then the second and without noticing I was already on the other side

I picked the phone up without checking who it was

"Hello?" I said

"Hey Luke, are we still going out today? " the voice who I recognized as Ashton's said

"Eh, sorry Ash but, I don't think I'll make it"

"Why? Did something happen?" gis voice sounded worried but I don't really wanna explain what happened

"No, I'm just sick... So, we'll meet any other day"

"Want me to go help with anything?"

"No, Ashton, you don't nee-"

"Luke shut up, I'll be there"

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"It's open!" I yelled when I heard the knocking in the door

The curly headed boy entered the room with a package in his hand and a confused look on his face "Oh my god Luke, how did this happened?" He exclaimed as he saw me

"I just fell from the stairs.. I'll be fine" I muttered looking down and it was awkwardly silent for a moment

"I... I brought soup" He mentioned making me smile and let out a little chuckle

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Lazy hehehe

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"I can eat on my own y'know" I said with my mouth full of potato as Ash held a spoon on his hand because he had insisted on feeding me like a baby

"I don't care, now open up, the plane's coming" He smiled pressing the spoon against my closed lips

"I think I'm done with eating" I said cleaning my mouth and Ash placed the plate aside

"Hey Luke" He spoke "Why did you wanted to see me for?"

"Oh" I sighed "I-It's nothing..."

"No, tell me"

"Well.. The thing is that... Calum hit on me.. And he.. harassed me.." I looked down, not wanting to see his hurt face, I've seen that way too many times now

"I-It's ok" He hard swallowed "It's not your fault, I'm glad you told me, you're a good friend" His hazel eyes were so close and a sad smile painted his lips, which were extremely close and getting nearer

I panicked, I was paralyzed, and my heart felt like it had stopped beating on my chest. Then his lips were on mines and my eyes closed, feeling how his mouth moved on top of mine

I broke away first looking at him with anger, how could he do that? I thought I could trust him "I miss you" His eyes started to water

"No Ashton" I said "I have Michael"

"Not anymore" A cracked voice said and I lifted my gaze to the door where the boy with lilac hair was standing with tears flooding his eyes

"Mikey-"

"Don't even, we're done"

*Author Note*

And this is what happens when you write Lashton BAD THINGS HAPPEN

Sorry don't kill me, if you do you won't know how this ends

THE WINTER IS COMING

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