I've felt lonely these past three weeks. I don't want to admit it but I know it's because he's gone. Him and a lot of other students at our school have been sent on a four week trip. I didn't know what to do one weekends because I usually spent it with him. It feels awkward walking to class because I always, ALWAYS, have walked to class with him.
I've started to feel like this crush I've developed for him has turned into an unhealthy obsession, I feel so much worse knowing that he a hundred percent doesn't feel what I feel for him at all.
Is love suppose to hurt so much?
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Everything hurts, why does everything hurt?
HE called just a little while ago and the whole call was spent with him obsessing over a girl called Heather. I hate her, I hate her, I hate her, I HATE HER!
He made her sound like an angel. Is she an angel? She had to be or else why would he talk the way he did about her?
"My heart stops every time I think about her. The way she walks makes me want to worship her...she's...an angel..."
His words are stuck on replay inside of my brain. I can't stop crying, as I write my tears drench this page.
Why does...why does it hurt so much? I knew...I knew he never loved me or even saw me in that sort of light so why...why does it hurt so much!
Why do I find myself wishing for him to speak about me the way he does with Heather? Why is she the one he wants, why not me?
Why does love hurt so much?
YOU ARE READING
I Wish I Were Heather BXB
RomanceA diary of a boy who was in love but wasn't someone who could be loved.... A diary about the boy who wished...he was heather... A book diary about a boy who could never be heather... "Third of December" a busy month for a lot of people THIS WAS BOO...
