Peppermints, Rock and Lollipops

Part 21

My P.O.V

I sat with Nancy till about 8pm.

“Hannah I think you should ring Shane, He’ll be worried”  

I nodded

“But If I spoke to him I would want to go back”

Nancy smiled softly.

It was her way of saying “I understand but you know I’m right”

I nodded again and pulled out my phone to get the house number.

“You can use the hall phone”

I stood up and walked to the door. I turned around and smiled.

“Thanks Nancy”

She smiled. This time it said “You’re doing the right thing” Her smile always said something.

   I dialled the number and took a deep breath to calm myself down as I brought the phone to my ear.

After 3 rings there was an answer.

“Hello”

The voice sounded tired and filled with worry. I couldn’t even tell if it was Shane or not.

“Shane?”

The voice breathed a sigh of relief.

“Oh my god Hannah I’ve been so worried. Everyone has been out looking for you. Where are you? Are you still with Laurence? Hannah I’m so happy you rang”

I was crying softly but didn’t answer.

“Hannah?”

I calmed myself down.

“I miss you shane”

He sighed

“Then come home please”

I shook my head

“But I love Laurence”

Shane sighed

“Hannah I love you I lost you once and I miss you. Fuck that we all miss you”

I wiped my eyes

“I’m so so sorry Shane”

I put the phone down, fell against the wall and cried.

“Will he find me” I said as Nancy came out to hug me.

“No, not from this phone it blocks our number out”

I nodded

“Good I’m not ready to leave Laurence Just yet”

Laurence’s P.O.V.

I lay on the bed scared to death,

Was she reconsidering? No WHY was she reconsidering? Is it me? What did I do?

I had went down stairs to see Hannah and I heard her talking to Nancy.

Basically

she misses Shane and wants to go back to him.

I sighed and opened my phone.

1 text.

Kier

I miss you best bud :’( x

All of this and that added on top and broke me.

I wanted to go back now but I can’t.

Well I could but I don’t want to leave Hannah.

But she seemed to be planning on leaving me.

I knocked my phone onto the floor and cried.

Stress had taken over me.

Hannah shut the door and ran over.

“Oh my god Laur”

She touched my shoulder and I pushed her off.

I turned around straight away.

“Oh my god I am sorry I’m really sorry”

She kneeled next to me.

“It’s ok Laur. What’s wrong?”

I looked at her.

She really did care.

I could tell she did.

“Are you leaving me to go back to Shane?”

She seemed to make a spitting noise and she looked down.

She popped her head back up after thinking for a split second.

“No Laur, I just really miss everyone I want to go back but not with out you, Never with out you”

I held her hand.

“I really miss Kier”

She smiled

“My brother lost me again”

A tear clung to her bottom eye lashes.

I wiped it away before it fell.

I kissed her softly.

“We will work it out I promise”

She smiled

   She walked into the bathroom to get changed.

I can’t believe I lied to her.

Of course I wanted to go back!

I picked up my phone and text Kier

It’s gay with out you :’( I miss you man! X

He text back straight away

It’s gay with me ;) Please come back! X

That made me laugh

I will I promise x

My P.O.V.

I lied to Laurence and I felt so bad.

YES I WANTED TO GO BACK AND NOW.

Could I leave during the night?

No.

Nancy is letting me work here.

I could leave though.

It was too soon leaving Shane.

I had been living with him for a month

maybe 2

and I did this to him.

I pulled out my phone.

Sorry for hanging up and everything. I’ll ring you every night I promise. Soon as I have enough money I will come back. Don’t you worry! Xx

I pulled on my pj top over my head and sat on the closed toilet seat waiting for a reply.

My phone buzzed

Good. I really do miss you! I miss Laurence too it’s not the same. Please soon both of you come back. I miss you both far too much especially you Hannah. Xx

He was letting Laurence back!

Thanks Shane. I want to come back now but I can’t but I’ll call you tomorrow :D Night love you Xx

 I knew Laurence wouldn’t go back with me.

So I guess that was it.

I was going to be running away for the third time in my life but this time would take longer and would be better planned but would have the biggest regret of my life.

All though.

I was still undecided.

Do I or Don’t I leave Laurence behind?