Flipped [Completed]

Sarawat

Ever since I was a kid, I know I am not the wanted twin. My brother was the one who's the best on everything, the one who receives everything, the one who has all the attention, the one who earns the praises, be it from my parents or other people.

And me.. I'm the spare. My only companion was guitar, and the four corners of my room. 

I thought that I would be alone for my whole life. Until my savior arrived.

Tine might not remember it but the first time that we saw each other was imprinted on my mind. I was going to perform for the school festival and was waiting for my parents to take a seat at the space that I requested to my teacher to save for them. The first song has already ended however they still haven't arrive. 

That's when I remembered Day has a football game today. 

I wanted to cry as I saw all chairs for parents were occupied except mine. But I bit my lip and continued to play. Before the last song though, I saw someone sat on the chair. It was a kid of my age. He was wearing a uniform from the private school nearby. As the song ended,  I immediately went to him, but the kid wasn't there anymore. All that was left in his place was a bunch of irises.

That was the first time I received a gift from someone. 

I never saw him again after that. I don't even have his name, and the school uniform that he wore has a lot of kids that even if I tried checking him there, I wasn't able to find him. All I remember was the smile that he has while listening to us playing. 

And that smile kept me going. It kept me going even if my parents ignore me, even if my brother left me, even if I have no one. Every time I remember his smile, and see the irises that I kept on my music notes, and I know that there's someone who supported me even once in my life. 

He kept all my demons in bay. The demon who wanted to stay awake until all his family members were asleep, and stab them one by one. The demon who wanted nothing but revenge towards his family who treated him no better than dirt. He kept them at bay. When Day and I fought, I almost stab him if it wasn't for my savior's smile that reminded me, that I don't need them. I won't dirty my hands until I found him again. So I settled on to punching Day. The scar that he got from that was enough to satisfy my inner demon for a while. 

I was able to make friends eventually, Man and Boss. But I can't tell them everything yet. They are still unknown to me. There's only one person aside from myself that I can trust. And it's him.

Meeting Man might be my reward for not killing Day that time. Man insisted for me to come to Silpakorn as the band Scrubb was performing. I was getting already bored, and wanted to go home. But then, I saw him. 

He's here! He's in front of me the whole time!  My heart was pounding so loud that I cannot even hear the screams, the music. All I can hear was him, singing along with the song. All I can see is him, jumping in joy. Laughing. Happy.

Take him. My demon said. Take him and make him yours. Make sure that no one can take him away from you. 

When the concert ended, I followed him and his friend making sure that it was really him as how many times was I deceived by my desire to see him again? 

But then, he smiled. My heart started to beat loudly, it was him! I found him! I can't approach him right now, but I can take more than a ghost of smile this time. I took my phone out, and took a photo of myself with him. I smiled softly. My savior. I finally found you. 

I tried looking for him several times after that. I went to every concert, to every fan meeting. What I didn't expect was to see him at the same university as I am studying at.