𝙠𝙚𝙣𝙢𝙖 𝙭 𝙠𝙪𝙧𝙤𝙤.

𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙚𝙣𝙙 📀🏹🩰

~8 months later~

today was the day i was going to confess to Kuroo. we've hung out many times since you've last heard from me and ive began to feel comfortable around him.

8:14am

oh shit- im going to be late for school!
after school ill confess to him. i have cleaning duties with him so this should go smoothly

even if he doesn't feel the same way. i need to say it and not be scared to show my true emotions like i always do.

"morning kuroo" i say, smiling
"good morning pudding-kun!"
kuroo seems to be over joyed today. i hope i dont ruin it after school-

what am i thinking! hes an understanding person and its not like he'll kill me or something.

1:10 pm

its lunch.. each minute leads closer to the end of school.. shit shit shit shit

i walk out into the school garden. i lay down on a hill and close my eyes.

i feel... a ladybug crawling over my fingers, tickling me.

lucious green grass tickling my cheeks.

sunshine shining over my face.

wind blowing through my long hair.

i cant explain it but i feel relaxed and relieved. i sense no despair or anger just pure relaxation almost like a newborn child. it feels good and i deserve this.

no thoughts are running through my brain. only happiness and good thoughts.

RIIIINGGGGG

lunch is over and i didnt even get to eat. but its ok, i had well deserved happinesss in an empty environment. all alone. no one to annoy me.

however, the time for me to confess to kuroo comes closer. just one more hour and then my life may or may not become back to the way it was before i met kuroo.

empty

3:35

"KUROO WAIT UP!" i scream out for him as he walks infront of me in the empty school hall. he turns around subtly but still enough to see its me.

"lets go to the classroom for cleaning duties." i say pointing back to the class
"oh yes! how could i forget! lets gooo!" he says saluting himself and immediately links arms with mine. we walk to the class.

"ill c-clean the board. you can do the desks..." i mumble.
"yes-sir-re" he says cheerfully.
i walk over to the board and grab the chalk eraser.

up and down. up and down.

i go in a specific rythm whilst cleaning the board, im in deep thought and didnt realise i was missing half the chalk.

"hey kenma, are you ignoring me?" i hear a sad mumble come from behind me- it snaps me out of my daydreaming.
"huh- wait what. no sorry im just... thinking..." i mumble
"about what?" kuroo says pushing me fowards on the board. he corned me, blocking me from escaping by using both arms besides me.

~+~

"me?" he asks, grinning
i turn away- i cant cover my face with my hands because suddenly kuroo pulls up my arms pinning me against the wall leaving it even more of a struggle to get out.

"LOOK AT ME"

i feel my eyes start to squint.. my eyes are warm and i start crying

so much for trying to confess. now he thinks i hate him- no. maybe he hates ME.

i hear kuroo softly gasp.
"i-im sorry... i didnt want to make you cry" he says letting go of my wrists

i put my knuckles up to my eyes to rub my tears.

"its just that. kenma. when im near you i feel nervous- i dont know how to act and my face gets all hot and i dont-"

"kuroo... do you love me?" i ask
he looks at me with wide eyes and a trembling lip.

"yes"

"i do to kuroo, i really do"

"prove it."