Poems & sayings of my world

Wasted help

I think I'm going stir crazy
Because I can't stop thinking about what happened
I can't stop thinking how I "helped you"
I can't stop thinking that my help was wasted
I got the message that I need to go save you
The text messages that said it'll be the last Time
Went to save you
But now I don't think I did
I can't help but feel frustrated
I'm frustrated because I gave you options of help
I'm frustrated that I was put in a situation where I can't come to you're house anymore
I'm frustrated that I was put in that situation because I wanted to help
I understand the flaws that I did but I can't help but feel like I was lied too from both sides

I gave you a chance to get out but you refuse too
You say you will do better but I don't believe you
My help was wasted my trust is broken
I could never save you
I can never save someone who doesn't want to be saved

I'm drowning in regret
I'm suffocating in self pity
I'm dying of disappointment
I'm crying because I should have known
I can't help but think of something I could have done differently
I couldn't help but think of different scenarios
I can't help but see a repeat of everything that happened
Every time I see the memories of that day I can't help but feel more anger, more frustrated.
I can't help but feel like I wasted my HELP that day!
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I can't help
I will have to fade
This will take time but soon I'll fade
I'll fade-away from you
I'll do what I have done to others
I'll be a ghost in your life
You'll see me but won't talk to me
You'll hear me but not see me
You'll think of me but won't text me
Soon I'll become a ghost of your past that I chose to fade from
I just hope you remember the help that you wasted that day