DEAR DIARY.
Just when I thought I had closed the chapter that made me feel less of a woman,
a chapter that infringed my freedom,
a chapter that made me feel blue on a daily basis,
Remembering the tears and the pain,
the hurt and shame,
the memory of your face,
the ashes I burnt down all coming back to life wrapped around my heart like intricate lace.
But the fun we had and the joy you had brought into my life made me accept you back in my arms as nothing had happened.
Giving you the same love and affection only for you to tell me what my ears never wanted to hear.
Was our love inevitable?
Was I stupid for loving you?
Was fate going to repeat itself?
Was everything going to change?
Did you realize you wouldn't live without me?
All these were the questions I had at the depths of my heart.
Just when I thought you were here to stay,
it was just one of your lies.
But you promised you were never going to leave me again,
I guess you haven't changed at all.
I watched you slip away.
Did you come back to just watch me fall again?
It seems like you like to watch me in pain?
Do you think of how your actions affect others?
I shouldn't have trusted you with your sweet lies,
when you were busy plotting my demise.
Why are you doing this to me?
was it your plan to destroy my soul,
to destroy what's left of me?
What's your purpose for making me suffer?
Your selfishness is what's twisting my whole being.
My understanding of life is different from others,
I've grown to love the feeling of torment because I see it as pleasure.
The word love has become a nightmare.
Please leave me alone,
you are not ready to bury a soul.
Maybe it was unrequited love?.
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The Depths Of My Heart
Short StoryA diary collection of my thoughts. At this moment my thoughts are my greatest threat. I can't bare to think of anything but the way my life is taking a huge turn and I have to comply. I'm becoming a slave in my own mind and am trapped inside. My hea...
