MI VERDAD || TAEJIN ✔️✔️

LETTER 5: MY FEAR IS ...

Dear Mrs. Aurora Kim,

This is me, Seokjin. Do you still remember me, madam? I am the one you believed is the one for your son Kim Taehyung. I am writing you this letter because I wanted to thank you for your vision between the two of. Without your comforting words for me, believing that I can handle him despite all his imperfections and my imperfections as well, I don't know if we will make it this far.

I will keep it short, Mrs. Kim, I wanted to let you know that I ill always be grateful that you entrusted your son to me. With Taehyung I felt like everything is possible. With Taehyung everything is golden; every moment is precious. He gave me three beautiful children and never did make me cry. He never cheated, nor looked at anyone else besides me. I was so lucky I found him, Mrs. Kim. We may have experienced rough times, but those times were easily forgotten whenever he looks at me with eyes full of love and promises of forever.

I love Taehyung with all my heart, Mrs. Kim but I am afraid he will get lonely soon. Because like you, I can feel that my end is near too. It's been 80 years since I was born, 63 years of friendship with Jimin and 53 years of being married with Taehyung. My life is well lived, ma'am but I'm afraid to leave your son. He will get too lonely. He will have a hard time sleeping without me beside his bed, or without hearing me say I love you to him every moment he wakes up. He won't eat his food not unless I made him coffee. You see, your son is high maintenance, but I love that fool, Mrs. Kim. If I can turn back time, I will find him again and love him in the early days of our lives.

Mrs. Kim I just can't leave him be. I wanted to be with him until his last breath. I'm afraid to leave him because I know how much he loves me. He will literally stop breathing when I'm gone, and if there is something I wish, it was not to see him cry. I can bear it if he leaves first and watches over me because I will wait for him no matter what. I don't want him to suffer from loneliness, madam. I want him to be happy there with you. I can live day by day with the thought of seeing him one day when my times comes.

Mrs. Kim, I'm afraid. I'm so afraid. I don't know what to do. I don't want my time to end. Mrs. Kim, what should I do? I feel like tomorrow will be my last and every hour matters to me because at any moment I will be gone. Let's face it I'm old and gray. I am indeed lucky to live up to this age.

Mrs. Kim, can you tell God to extend my time or just take me when he takes Taehyung too? I'm afraid to leave him be. I can't I just can't. Not yet.

Forever grateful,

Kim Seokjin

Taehyung cried. He indeed was gone the day after he wrote this letter. He is trembling. Seokjin didn't wake up the next morning and Taehyung just lost it. The love of his life, the air he breathes is now gone. He was sleeping peacefully, and he didn't wake up, not letting Taehyung hear him say I love you one more time.

He remembered Seokjin telling him last night, "I am forever grateful that I met you. I can't imagine my life without you in it. I was so lucky that you chose to love me despite my imperfections. Even though I am so out of league of all the guys you dated. You may not always hear this from me when we were younger, but Taehyung I love you. I love you so much. From here and even in the afterlife. Wherever universe we are in, remember that Kim Seokjin will always love you, Kim Taehyung."

Taehyung kissed Seokjin that night. They were old but the love he has for Jin never did fade away. He didn't know it was the last. Because if he did, he would've made it longer. He would've pulled him closer and never fell asleep and enjoyed the last hours they will share.

"You're so unfair Seokjin. Do you really think I can leave you here? No, it's okay. Go and rest. I will wait for you to take me there with you and Mama. Say hi to Jisoo for me too." He whispered to his grave. "Don't take too long, okay? I'm missing you already, babe."

He kissed his grave and cried once more. because it's not living if it's not with Seokjin. But he is also grateful he got to have a chance to experience being loved by Seokjin.

Dearest Kim Fucking asshole Taehyung,

Don't get jealous if this letter will be short. But I want you to remember, I fell for you first, deep and hard. Thank you for entrusting me with your heart and thank you for taking care of mine. You are the perfect husband and perfect father for our kids. If I would have a spin of our life again, I will always choose you despite having many other choices.

I love you. Try not to get lonely when I'm gone. Don't cry when you read this. It will break my heart.

p.s. if you read this while I'm alive and didn't cry I will punch your face.

The ex-Virgin,

Kim Seokjin

Taehyung folded the letter in half and placed it in his heart.

"In another time, I will find you earlier and hold you in my arms so I can be with you longer."

Okay, I ugly cried like for real and now my head hurts and my nose is clogged my eyes swollen. I'm so emotional wtf XD