Issues // Sam Pottorff

Chapter 4 ~Joe's P.O.V~

This chapter contains drug use, so if you don't want to read any of that I suggest not read this chapter sorry. This story is going to contain alot more of it so yeah .

                Packing. That's all I have done after the Skype with Rick, it was exhausting. We did all of the paper work over Skype because we couldn't meet in person, there wouldn't be enough time. It was currently one in the morning and my mom was passed out asleep. I was stressed and wide awake, stressed because I'm nervous and wide awake because I'm excited. If that makes any sense.

                 I walk over in front of my closet and pull the carpet up a bit were i have a secret hole in the floor. I pull out my small bag of joints, i only had two left. I don't really smoke that much, i usually only do it when I'm stressed and need to relax, like now.  I go over to my window, open it and light the joint. After a few drags I start to relax, i take another big drag the smoke calming me. I jump all over my self when a blaring ring comes from my pocket. I scrambled to get it out before I woke my mom and she saw all of this. Choking on the smoke in my throat I hurry and answer my phone.

                     "H-ello" I cough out, "joe?" Jen says laughing,  i cough some more and try to answer "yeah its m-me" she laughs "You okay?" She asks   "yeah fine" I say coughing at the end "what happened?" She asks worried now "damn smoke" I mutter "what?" She asks "nothing my drink went down wrong when the phone rang it scared me" I half lie. "I heard something about smoke" a random male voice yells. "Same" another voice says "who is this?" I ask as I start putting my stash back under the carpet, just in case my mom might have woken up.  "Sorry joe I have you on Bluetooth in the car." Jen says. "Oh okay, well who is that?" I ask again going to close my window. "Kian and Jc" she says, I laugh "hey boys " I say "hey joe, so what were you puffing on?" Kian asks, i laugh again "nothing I told you I was taking a drink and the phone scared me" I lie again. "Uh huh" Jc says, "joe hunny are you okay?" My mom yells from down the hall, "Shit" I say to my self as I start spraying free breeze all over the place "yeah mom my drink went down wrong, sorry I woke you." I yell back "Sorry guys okay so what did need?" I ask as I finish spraying everything.  "Anyway joe the reason I'm calling is to ask you, would you like too try and sneak out tonight and come with us? The boys decided to have a going away party since we're all going on tour. First party of many" she explains excited "yup, this year's going to be the best, you need to come joe. Its been to long since we've partied together,  i miss it." Kian says, I laugh loudly.

                Its true I missed dunken nights with Kian he's the best, especially him and Jc drunk together. Kian is definitely my best friend,  i mean Jenn is to but Kian and I are closer. We met when i was having my very first meet up at the mall. There was about two hundred people that showed up and it started out fun but then girls started getting agitated and they started shoving each other and I got shoved down by accident. I started panicking, girls were stepping on me and security was trying to help. I started having a panicking attack, i curled up in a ball and started crying and shaking. Somebody grabbed my arm and started pulling me off the ground. He picked me up bridal style, i dug my head into his hard ches, he smelled amazing. I concentrated on his breathing and tried to make mine match and I slowly started breathing normal. I could feel him making his way through the crowed and the girls screaming started dying down.  "Hey, hey are you okay? Look at me. Joe" he said, I looked up through my blurry eyes and could barely make out who it was. We were in a bathroom "Are you alright? " He asked again in a soft tone. "H-how do you kn-know my name?" I asked in asked small voice. "YouTube" he smiled, then I recognized him. "Your, y-our Kian Lawley." I hiccuped while wiping my eyes. He smiled and said "yes and i wanna know if you are you okay" he asked again, "ye-ah I'll be fine, they just scared me" I hiccuped again. "Yeah they tend to do that, you shouldn't have come alone" he laughed, i smiled "i didn't think that many would show up, you can put me down now" I laugh "Oh yeah" he laughs and puts me back on my feet. Ever since then he's been with me through alot and- "You mean she's actually gotten drunk before? " someone says astonished, cutting me out of my thoughts. "Yeah she sneaks out with us when she can" Kian says informing the person, "who's that? " I ask, "that was Sam, he's pissy because Rick got in his ass about Digi" Jc says  "I am not, i just want to get to the party, is she coming or not?" He says agitated, damn he sounds pissed. I've never met Sam, I've seen his videos of course and he always seemed mad and stressed.  I kinda felt bad for him, but he's kinda being a dick. "Calm the fuck down Sam" Kian demands "Joe can you come?" Jenn asks "no sorry guys, it wouldn't be smart at this point,  she's letting me go to Digi so I don't want to risk anything, ya know" I say, "yeah that's fine, I'll see ya in a couple days?" Jenn asks  "definitely" I say yawning. "K love ya" she says "love you joe!!" Kian and Jc yell. "Love you too. Night guys have fun, be careful" I say laughing "we will, bye" Jenn says as she hangs up, I plug my phone to the charger and crawl into bed.

                  I leave in two days and I couldn't be more excited and nervous all at once. I'm so nervous to meet my fans, their the sweetest people ever, but I'm scared that their are going to be people that hate me their too. Which is probably going to happen, i can deal with hate online but in person it's so much scarier. I grab my phone and get on twitter and tweet

         ~ hey guys I absolutely cannot wait to meet you all, I love you all so much. I'm kinda nervous too so take it easy on me lol night guys see ya in a couple days.~

             I lock my phone, and try to find sleep.

I re-edited this chapter so yeah srry bout tht.
Okay so here you go and I'll update again probably Tuesday or Wednesday, byeee :)