Journey into my mind

Stay

We went into the room to see Kobe laying there life less the doctors said they were going keep him for a couple days so like 3 days they where going to use his Kidney for  a patent that needed one. Nikki was going ballistic so she had to leave, we gave her our hotel card and she went there. We all went in one at a time and everyone came out crying even Kaden.

"You can go in now." He says walking over to me.

I walk close to the door and i feel over whelmed.

"Kaden."

"Yeah?" He turns around .

"I'm scared." I say.

"You will be ight just stay calm." He tells me and walks over to the others.

I go into the hospital room, and i see a lifeless body. But not just any lifeless body Kobes tears shed from my eyes, he looked so peaceful and being with him made me go at ease. 

"Kobe...Kobe..I'm so sorry this is all my fault nun of this would have happened if it wasn't for me and my dumb ass getting so upset, I fucking love you so much and this had to happen." 

I walk up next to the bed and grab his hand and stare at his face.

"I want you to come back to me please...please Kobe I need you." I say then the doctor walks in.

"You can come back eventually before it's time for us to do the next surgery for his Kidney." The doctor was trying to make me leave, but i didn't want to.

"No please just one more moment with him please." I beg.

"Sweetie you have to go." The doctor says more firm.

"I can't please just a little longer."

"Someone come get her please!" She yells and Dejuane walks in and grabs me.

"NO! STOP HE NEEDS ME! STOP DEJUANE PLEASE!" I'm screaming and yelling at this point.

"I'm sorry but you have to get out of here."

"JUANE! JUANE! PUT ME DOWN LET ME GO!" I was screaming kicking and hitting him.

As we leave I see people staring at me  like they could feel my pain.

"I'll be back." He tells Jaden, Kaden and the rest of the group.

I was still crying and reaching towards Kobe's room. Dejuane puts me in the passenger seat and get's into the drivers and locks the door.

"I HATE YOU!!! I HATE YOU! " I scream at him he just at me sadly.

"Why did they take him from me!" I say.

I blabber like a baby.

"AAAA!!FUCK!!FUCK FUCK FUCK!" I bang on the dashboard of the car Dejuane just stares at me with tears in his eyes.

"I know you hurting l'm hurting, but you gotta calm down baby." Dejuane tells me.

"I can't don't you understand i saw him die before any one even knew! I am fucked up in the head now, he tried to hold on but he couldn't and he told me this Dejuane, i can never live the same after that!" I cry.

Dejuane leans over and hugs me, i put my face into his arms and cry, he strokes my head like i'm a little child.

"This is all m fault." I say into his arm so it was muffled.

"No baby it's not none of it is. It's whoever did this fault." He tells me.

I sit up and look at him.