Star Maniac

17

"Why did you left?" Jacob asked me when Ms. Ann was writing something on the blackboard.

"When?" I wrote what was on the blackboard.

"Yesterday evening. Why did you left?" He looked at me. I remain silent. I don't know what to say. I stay froze for awhile. Crossing my hands across my chest.

"I don't know," I answered him. I can hear he's sighing. Maybe disappointed with my answer. "I'm sorry," I said. Then he get up and asked something to Ms. Ann. Then he left the classroom. I don't know where he went.

***

I was eating with Alice, Andrew and Jacob during recess when suddenly my phone rings. I took my phone and see who's calling me. 'Dad'. I sighed. I don't know whether should I answer it or not.

"What are you waiting for? Answer it. It's your father," Alice looked at me and smiled. Somehow, her smile gave me strength to answer it. I get up from my sit and walk away from the table. I want to talk with dad alone.

I breath out before I picked up the call. "Hello,"

"Nataly! Are you okay? Where are you? Everyone were worried sick about you! I've tried to call you so many times. And you didn't answer!" Dad sounds relief.

"I'm okay. I'm fine. I'm at London -" dad cuts me off.

"Oh thank god you're okay! What did you say? You're at London? Where the fuck did get so much money to bought a ticket to London?!" Dad raised his voice. Maybe he's mad.

"It's my pocket money. Don't bother about it. I'm sorry for making all of you worried," I said with a low tone.

"Nataly, dear, you shouldn't left home just like that. We can send you off to airport the next morning. I'll repay your money,"

"It's okay," I sighed.

"Nothing is okay. You runaway from home! I'll give you back your money. Text me the exact amout. Nataly, we haven't finished talking when you left. We want to let you know everything. Why did you left? Are you out of your mind?" Dad sighed. My tears started to flow down. I'm crying. Why does it hurt so much hearing dad saying it?

"I said it's okay. You don't have to worry about the money. I think, there's nothing left for you to say. You made it clear now. I'm your adopted daughter. You feel responsible for my parents dead. That's the reason why you adopt me in the first place,"

"Shut up! You don't know anything! It's true you're my adopted daughter but I didn't adopt you because I feel responsible for your parents dead. I adopt you for your own good," he said. I think if I was standing in front of him right now, I'll be slapped. Confirm.

"Of course I don't know anything! Because you never told me! I am 16 and now only I know the truth. You're not my real parents though. Why you even bother for my own good," I feel rude after saying that. Oh god.

"I never teach you to talk to elder like that. You're rude. Why doesn't it is so hard for you to accept the fact? Did you really hate us after knowing the truth? What if you know the truth when you're younger, will you do the same?"

"I'm sorry for being rude. I don't know. Please leave me alone," I hang up the call. I cry so hard. I didn't even get into the class after recess. I was locking myself inside the music room. I'm crying.

***

I was laying on the couch in the music room. Crying. I don't know what to do. Why does it so hurt so much when I think about it. Adopted. One word, 7 letters but contain thousands of pain.

I played the piano to relief my pain. I played all Space Note songs. I really wish Cora, Victoria and Trisha were here. They'll understand me for sure. I really wish I can hugged them. I miss them. I miss Space Note.

My eyes was red. But it seems like it won't stop crying. I'm hurt. Too hurt. I press the keys hard. Then I heard footsteps coming towards me. I stop plays the piano and quickly turned around and saw Jacob. Then I turned around facing the keys.

"I want to be alone," I said. I rest hands besides my hips.

"Sorry. I hear sounds coming from this room. So, I just -"

"Leave," I said before Jacob could even finish talking.

Instead of leaving, Jacob sit besides me. He put his hands on my shoulder and make me turn and looked at him.

"Your eyes was red," he said before he suddenly hugged me. "It's okay. Take your time," he whispered. I want to push him but his hug makes me comfortable. I feels so relief. I slowly hugged him back. He rubbed my back slowly. "You must be tired," he whispered.

"Jacob," I whispered. "Thank you," I continued. He nodded his head. I let go of my hands. He did the same. He looks at me. He pushed my chin upward so he could see my face. He pushed my hair so he could see my face clearly.

"I hate seeing you sad," he said. I stared at him. His eyes, his nose, his lips, his jaw, his hair, everything. Perfect. Why I never realize this before? He's so perfect in my eyes.

"Jacob," I paused. "I'll tell you everything," I said. He looks surprised. He let go of my chin and holds my hand.

"Good," he muttered. He smiled. Oh god, his smile makes my heart beats faster. What happen? I don't understand.

I told him everything. Except about Space Note. I told him that I was adopted. Everytimes I talks about it, I cried. Even though I try to hold it. I'll never success in holding my tears. Once I finished told him, he hugged me again. He rubbed my back gently. His touched makes me comfortable.

***

I was wandering around London with Alice. It's autumn. I loves everything about autumn. The brownish leaf. The winds. Everything.

Alice and I were kicking the leaf. We're laughing so hard. When both of us tired, we'll laying on the grass.

"Let's grab some food. I'm hungry," I said as we both laying on the grass.

"Tell me the time you won't feel hungry. You're 24/7 hungry. Let's go!" She laughed.

Both of us get up and went inside this Gothic theme restaurant. Alice said this restaurant have good food.

Alice order milkshake and spaghetti while I ordered lemon-coke tea and fish and chip. While waiting for our food, we're being entertain by couple of people plays jazz. It's really interesting. I like this place. The food was good too. I love it.

On our way back to ABMS, my eyes caught on this interesting poster. I took the poster to our dorm.

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