It's The Angel In My Dreams [On-going]

Thirty

Only my undying sobs were heard.

Hendrix is kissing the side of my hair. Somehow, it makes me feel at ease. Nanghihina ako sa mahihinang halik na iginagawad niya habang umiiyak ako.

"Baby, please stop crying..."

His voice is almost pleading. May diin at may bahid ng pag-aalala.

I faced him then he smiled at me. Like he wasn't even unconscious all the time! It was almost 2 days!

"Y-you fucking... almost d-died... How can I stop..."

He wiped the tears trailing down my cheeks using his thumb. Every touch he gives bring me somewhere else. More than reaching the peak of the skies.

"But I'm now here, baby... I'm sorry for making you worried..."

I bit my lips.

"I'm really sorry..." Then he held my hand. He wasn't crying, but his bloodshot eyes is really evident. His blue eyes, subsided with fainted red. It pains my heart to see his eyes in sorrow.

Then after a while, I stopped crying. I was just breathing on his neck the whole time. Ninanamnam ko bawat sandali, alam kong lahat ng bagay ay may katapusan. Gustuhin man natin, o hindi. Kaya dapat ay sulitin ko lahat ng pagkakataon. I want to feel Hendrix every second. Ayokong masayang.

He kissed my forehead, seems like we're now in good state. We're both sane.

"Did you eat?"

Umiling ako. Hindi ako nakakain. Or should I say, wala akong balak.

"I can hear your mind, literally. You forgot? Kain na,"

His voice, it was authoritative. 'Yong mapasusunod ang Heather na walang takot. He's the only one I obey. I can't say no.

I remained silent.

"Please speak up.. I'm sorry. Should I- cook?"

Palihim akong umirap. Naiinis ako dahil siya na nga ang muntik nang mapahamak at ako pa rin ang iniintindi niya. He was so selfless. He is always selfless. And I hate that he's always kind.

Oo nga pala, anghel siya. Ako?

Tao lang. Spoiled brat pa.

"Stop thinking those."

His baritone voice lingered in my ears. Minsan, ayaw ko na lang na anghel siya. Ayaw ko na pala na maging ganiyan siya, ayaw ko na palang may kapangyarihan siya. Ayaw ko na pala ng kahilingan.

Mas gugustuhin ko pang normal na tao na lang siya kagaya ko.

I don't care about the flaws he'll have. I know, I'll still choose him every time. Always.

Hindi ba puwedeng normal na lang ang lahat?

Ang hirap ng ganito, e.

I felt his lips at the side of mine. All of my toughts blew in just a snap.

"I'll fight against fate, baby... Please, I don't like you being like this... Let me do the things for us, okay?"

His words were like double daggers.

"Okay..."

Then he stood up. Nag-luto yata. I can smell the aroma of adobo in his unit. It smells so good. He cooks?

May kusina kaya sa langit?

After some moments, I watched how he placed the food on our plates. Inilagay niya na ang kanin sa lamesa, tumayo ako para tumulong. Dahan-dahan kong nilakad ang distansiya namin habang nag-huhugas siya ng kamay.

I untied his apron and took a towel to wipe his face.

Napangiti ako. Feeling ko tuloy nagpapractice na kami bilang mag-asawa.

"Hendrix..."

He faced me, he looked at me intently.

"Hmm?"

"I missed you..." I caught him staring at my eyes, until his sight reached my lips. Naalala ko bigla ang halikan namin!

"I missed you more... so much."

Parang may anong kumurot sa puso ko. He sounded so sincere and... Sad?

"Umupo ka na,"

I followed his command. Inayos ko muna ang parte ng lamesa niya at nilagyan ko 'yon ng place mat. I arranged the spoon and forks then I sat on the seat in front of him.

I guess this is the first time we'll be eating his food. And it's memorable because this is his unit. Kahit papaano'y nag-iinit ang puso ko.

This moment is just so heart warming. Mas higit pa sa kasiyahan ko kapag binibili ako ng mga materyal na bagay. Wala sigurong makakapantay sa kasiyahang nararamdaman ko ngayon.

Indeed, money can't buy happiness.

"Eat up, Heather."

His voice is gentle. It's lulling my ears. Tiningnan ko ang manok na inilagay niya sa plato ko. Isinama ko iyon sa kanin at isinubo. He was looking at me, observing how I eat.

Napabagal tuloy ang pagnguya ko. I've never been this conscious in my whole life!

He chuckled.

"Nguyain mo ng mabuti. Does it taste bad?"

His brows furrowed. Nag-aalala yata.

But it's so good! This adobo is better than the recipe of our chefs!

"It's g-good... Ang sarap."

"Ng?"

Napakunot ang noo ko nang nakitang nakatingin siya sa labi ko.

"Ng adobo, malamang!"

Napainom tuloy ako ng tubig. Kahit kailan talaga.

He laughed. His white set of teeth showing.

"Shut up. You're thinking the other way around." Sinungitan ko siya, pero sa loob loob ko'y gusto ko nang magpakain sa lupa.
Nang napadila ako sa labi ko dahil sa kaunting sauce ay mas lalo lang akong naging conscious. Damn, Hendrix!

Naririnig ko ang halakhak niya, "Kumain ka ng maayos, kung ano anong nasa utak mo. Mamaya na, sa dessert ko na lang titikman."

What the fuck?

My eyes widened.

"May leche flan kasi sa fridge. Titikman ko mamaya."

Mas lalong lumakas ang halakhak niya. Lumapad ang ngiti niya sa labi. He's really amused with it, huh?

Binilisan ko na lang ang pagkain kahit na gusto ko pa. Siguro mamaya na lang, mag-uuwi ako ng adobo tapos ipapapreserve at ipapaframe ko.

Joke.

"Done?"

Tumango ako.

I drank on my glass then gulped immediately. Pinanood ko ang ginawa niyang pag-tayo at nang lumapit siya sa 'kin ay kumalabog agad ang puso ko.

He leaned closer, I didn't move when his face leaned on mine. His face were like an inch away from me!

Then the electrifying feeling invaded my spine when I felt his lips on mine.

My breath hitched when he licked the side of my lips slightly.

"May sauce. Sarap ng luto ko, ah."

Then he smirked.

What the?