Fame, Fortune And Betrayal {jongsang}

Chapter 16

(sorry this book is so messy)

Yeosang and jongho are close, very close. They are comfortable enough to mess around with each other but Yeosang wants more. After everything that has happened this year Yeosang was on an emotion high. One minute he'd be upset the next he'd be over the moon.

And it only got worse when he started messing around with jongho. On the days they aren't hold up in each others rooms they'd rarely talk.
Yeosang would watch jongho from across the hallway in class and growl at anyone who got close to jongho especially girls. He became possessive and jealous. Something he promised never to become.

Whenever he'd be around jongho he'd twist his words to keep him longer or he'd forcefully stop the intercourse for breaks just to continue longer than normal. He became snappy and easily irritated and he wouldn't acknowledge the limitations of their relationship. He learned this the hard way.

It was during the summer holidays and jongho and yeosang would be together everyday however, today jongho was hanging out with some of his friends and they're going drinking. Yeosang wasn't happy about that so he constantly messaged jongho, each message more sexual then the last hoping he'd get here quick enough.

However, he couldn't see how jongho was reacting on the other end of the phone. Said male was clenching his jaw and talking through his teeth. Every now and then he'd glance at his phone and grow irritated. He hated that Yeosang was always after him. It brought his self esteem down and made him highly irritable. He couldn't deal with the constant nagging and begging for him to be with yeosang, he wanted a life but yeosang isn't letting him do so.

He was so close to cutting yeosang off entirely. If this is how he was acting when they were just fucking around, he couldn't bare the thought of ever dating the male if he's going to be almost toxic.

So he did anything a sane person would do and cut out the toxic part off his life.

Yeosang was pitiful, he had just seen that he was blocked and knew he's pushed the younger male over the edge. He was livid and sobbing at the same time.

He couldn't even look in the mirror, disgusted by what he has become. He bit his lip hard enough for it to bleed and got up. He was going to set himself right. He spoke to his parents about this and they were angry at him for becoming a toxic person. So he got help, he went to a therapist who helped him in ways he didn't know could help.

Simple relaxing methods that helped yeosang forget about what happened and he'd feel like he once was.

'you're possessiveness is from the fear of not being accepted, you're scared he'd go to someone else. But that's not true, if you want him to stay, don't keep him on a leash let him have a life. Your constant need is a form of comfort, he was the first person to ever do something kind for you when you came out. Which made your mind manipulate you into thinking you control him which isn't true. Ones mind is the most toxic place but it is also the most fragile. Pinning him down and getting jealous makes him loose his trust in you. I think your best chance is to cometely forget about him. It may take a year or more but if you forget him then you can return to him. ' the therapist had once said.

Yeosang had agreed at that time believing it wouldn't work but it seems the most realistic. So he made plans to move earlier than after school. He spoke to his parents and they agreed they got a small apartment close to the company building project in another country and started their lives over. Yeosang finished school and started working in a coffee shop. His parents jobs were held strong as well. In his new work he'd see thousands of people a month and he wouldn't mind. He focused on what he does best and makes sure he doesn't come off as blunt to the customers.

However, he wasn't prepared for who walked in. It was jongho and his old friends. He had removed all contact with them after moving country, not trusting himself to hold up a healthy relationship with them so he did what he thought was best.

They walked to a table in the far corner and sat down, yeosang gulped and asked his coworker to serve them. She didn't ask why and just gave him a wierd look before doing as he asked.

After she got their orders, she returned and handed them to him.
"look Yeosang, whatever happened with you is over so stop being such a ppussy and serve them. I'll make the drinks you go give them to them, I won't take no for an answer" she said sternly and yeosang nodded and sighed. She prepared their drinks and gave them to yeosang on a tray. He took a deep breath and walked over to them, he put on a smile and handed their drinks.

He bowed and quickly left but he could here them muttering.
"wasn't that Yeosang?" he heard hongjoong say.
"I'm sure of it?" seonghwa spoke.
"why did he leave?" mingi asked and yeosang clenched his hands before getting behind the counter. He attended to more customers and finished his shift at work.

As he was leaving the door with his own cup of hot chocolate. His old friends walked up to him.
"yeosang?"san asked and Yeosangs grip grew tighter on his cup.
" why did you leave? "wooyoung asked and yeosang gulped.
"why aren't you dressed up?" yunho asked genuinely confused. Yeosang didn't know which to answer first so he just walked away with a bow.

"maybe that's not him?" mingi said and San scoffed.
"of course it's him he has the birthmark on his eye" san spoke and yeosang pace quickened.

'why did they have to show up?' he thought to himself and sighed. He quickly drank his drink and threw it in the bin and rushed to the library, he needed to let off some stress and what better way than to read.

Once he got to the library, he chose the furthest seats and grabbed a random fiction book and started reading. After about four hours or so he left and wandered around.

He didn't really have anything to do and he didn't want to go home yet so he looked in some shops. He got bored pretty quickly and just decided to head home.

As he was walking, with his head down, he bumped into someone and looked up to apologise only to see jongho and the others. He panicked a little and turned to leave but was grabbed by the wrist and shoulder.

"Yeosang, can we talk?" jongho asked and Yeosang gulped.

"s sure" he stuttered wanting nothing more than to leave.

They walked into another coffee shop and sat at a large booth. Yeosang eyed his old friends wearily waiting for them to yell at him and be mad he left them.

"so Yeosang, why did you leave?"