Blizzards of the Present

Simula

Simula

I'm so bored with this quarantine season! umay 2020. 

It's been 6 months since we were quarantined. At wala man lang improvements, bawat 15 days mag dedecide na lang sila kung gcq ba, mecq, ecq, at kung ano pa man. Hay!

But this quarantine is no joke. It's a huge threat on our mental health. That's why most people find themselves yearning for productivity and distractions, to avoid overthinking and such. I admit, i am one of them. This quarantine has changed me a lot. From making dalgona coffees, to working out, to breakdowns and quaranflings - I've done it all. I can't seem to find anything else that interests me. 

Sina Shopee at Lazada naman, inubos na ang laman ng wallet ko. It's my toxic coping mrchanism haha! I've been doing online shopping lately and my mom keeps scolding the hell out of me. Some parcels and packages arrive on similar dates kaya nagugulat nalang sila mommy na sobrang dami ang dumadating. I just love the feeling of opening some packages, it feels like surprising myself and it somehow resonates the feeling of Christmas.

Sometimes i vlog and make videos on YouTube to kill time and practice speaking confidently. I also want to improve my editing skills that's why i opted for vlogging since i'm bored and stucked for six months. I want to do something productive and fulfilling.

Anyhow, these things made my quarantine adaptable and quite bearable. I was able to survive it with the help of those activities and apps. It keeps me sane. It distracts me from the problematic world i live in. It helped a lot with my mental health and relieves my stresses and worries away.

I just hope everything will still be okay no matter how hopeless 2020 is.

Ni pag titiktok nga pinatos ko na. Noon naweweirdohan ako sa mga nag titiktok, tapos pre, masaya naman pala, pre. All I've been doing this quarantine is burning my time through netflix and making/watching tiktok videos. I rarely use my social medias nowadays because i find it somehow toxic. Also, I've been doing my requirements and deadlines lately, dahil nag start na nga ang online classes namin which i find sucks and at some point, I'm still grateful. 

Not everyone is as privilege as me. Madaming nag hihirap ngayong pandemya at alam ko iyon. 

Education shouldn't be a privilege, it's a right. That's why i'm not in favored of it, thus it's hard and ineffective to some students. With the poor connections of wifi, i wonder why Philippines still pursues online classes. Students are enrolling because they don't want to be left behind, some schools are opening because some teachers might not have a job to survive and support their daily lives. I don't think online classes is about learning anymore, it's about completing and submitting the due dates and requirements.

It sucks,you know? Biktima lahat tayo ng systema ng bansa.

But enough with my whining and sentiments, ano ano nanaman ang mga naiisip ko ngayong araw. Probably just bored and out of the blue, eto na lamang ang mga naiisip ko.

I just finished watching Elite from netflix, sobrang ganda kaso ang iksi at ang tagal pa nga next season. Nakatapos na rin ako ng dalawang tatlong kdrama. Tapos sa August 21 pa daw yung Lucifer.

"Mygosh! what to do?" i murmured to myself while scrolling on my for you page on tiktok.

"My name my age, my favorite color..."

"It's the new style..."

"I fucking love you..."

"Coz after all these time, I'm still into you.."

"Umay naman, tiktok. Wala na bang bago?" i said getting bored scrolling through my for you page.

"There's nothing i'd rather do, i'm stuck with you..." i stopped scrolling and started watching the video of the girl flexing her guy whom she met at an app like tinder. But i guess this one is wholesome and not for dating. That's something huh... might try it some other time if i'm that bored.

But i'm bored right now right? Pero nakakatamad. 

"Okay ganito, Lexi..." i made an agreement with myself. "Kapag nakakita ka pa ng dalawang video dito sa fyp mo sa tiktok na about sa Yubo, idodownload mo na ha. Ibig sabihin doon ka na makakahanap ng jowa, ay jowa tuloy." putol ko sa sarili ko. I chuckled.

"This could be us.."

"I'm the one who left you..."

"Three, two, one...she got me going psycho, she got me going down, down, down."

"Shoot! first video down." I said. It's about a video of a girl showing some of handsome guys from Yubo.

I kept scrolling til i found another one, it's about a girl too showing her single girl friends on Yubo. Hmm, I think this is the cue that i should give it a try huh? 

I might enjoy it, i just hope i could find friends and hopefully, a boyfriend? hehe lol. If things won't go well or if i get board, delete ko nalang.

Sana makahanap na ako ng gwapo! Charot one half.