Riverdale Smut and Fluff

16| Kevin Keller

Summery: Something happens to make you upset and Kevin comes to help you after hours of having to searching for you.

Warnings: Child abuse, Running away, and thoughts of Suicide, self-harm

My Gay Best Friend Is My Guardian Angel (Gaydaring angel)

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Y/N'S POV

I woke up to my parents yelling again. I quietly got up not wanting to be heard. I grabbed a black crop top(it was a crop top tank top by the way) that said 'people say I have a bad attitude, I say fuck'em' on it. I put it on and grabbed a pair of shorts, and put them on. I put on some socks and grabbed my combat boots and put them on. I looked in the mirror to see how the completed design looked. (fancy way of saying 'to see how my outfit looked or was checking myself out') My outfit looked amazing and showed off my serpent tattoo. My serpent tattoo was on my A/B/P (any body part.) I decided that I wouldn't wear my serpent jacket today. I grabbed my backpack that was filled with all of the supplies I needed for school. I grabbed my bluetooth headphones and connected them to my phone and let my headphones rest on my neck. I quietly tiptoed into my younger siblings room and woke them up and told them to get ready for school, I then went and woke up my twin brother Luka. After the rest of them got ready my two younger siblings school bus came to pick them up and left. Luka and I had to wait and hour to leave because our school bus didn't come to pick us up until then. We tried to sneak down stairs and not get noticed by our parents who were still arguing, we failed. They turned to us and started screaming at us and how we're mistakes and should have never been born. I got fed up with it, they were scaring Luka with all the yelling. I whispered to Luka "Get to the back door and just run to school, I'll be fine. I promise" Luka gave me a scared smile and ran to the back door. The sad thing about the promise I made Luka I knew I wasn't going to be able to keep it. As they were yelling at me I snapped back and yelled at them, " IF I'M SUCH A MISTAKE THEN WHY DID YOU DECIDE TO KEEP ME!?! YOU SAID YOU WOULDN'T DO ANYTHING LIKE PAPA AND GRAM's!?! YOU'RE A FUCKING LIAR!?! I HATE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH!?! I WISH YOU GOT RID OF ME WHEN YOU HAD THE CHANCE!?" I had so much hatred in my tone that you could practically see it. My mother and father looked at me in disbelief. "Well Y/N we wanted to get rid of you and the rest of you siblings, but we knew nobody would want useless, and trashy kids like you four!" My mother shouted at me. At that point I was going to cry. Both of my so called parents came up to me and shoved me on the ground making me fall back and hit my head on the ground. The hovered over me and started kicking me, punching me, smacking me, and violently pulling my hair. My "mother" pulled me up and held me up by my arms while my "father" punched me, slapped me. And after that my "mother" threw me against the wall and let my "father" start choking me. After me almost passing out, he threw me to the ground and they both took out their pocket knifes and started to leave cuts on my body, the cuts were either small that wasn't deep or they were deep, others large and not deep or they were deep. It was all extremely painful, as soon as the stopped they put away their pocket knifes, went outside, and drove away like they did nothing. As for me I weakly pushed myself up and decided instead of going to school I was going to get somewhere far away from those asswholes! I ran up stairs grabbed a few duffel bags and filled them with things I would need, like clothes, shoes, blankets, pillows, food, money, multiple first aid kits, weapons (for protection) and some Jewelry, pictures of my siblings and I, my phone and charger. I wrote a note saying I left but not saying where I left too, because honestly, even I didn't know where i was going to go. I jumped out of my window instead of using the front door. I already had my keys so I put all my bags that I had in the back seat of my car, including my backpack. I shut the door, and walked around to the driver side of the car and opened the door and as soon as I got in. I started my car and just drove my ass out of Sunnyside trailer park as fast as I could. Like I said didn't know where I was going, I just knew I had to get out of there as fast as I could, even if it meant I had to leave my siblings behind. I knew I was going to get them I just didn't know when. Time passed by quickly because before you knew it I stopped. I stopped in the middle of the woods. I looked up to see the huge tree house I built for Luka, Lavender, Damon, and I to go to when we needed too. I did show my best friend Kev where it is. Kev is a northsider but he's been there for me when i've needed it. Unlike the rest of the southsiders, they just usually say that i'm over reacting and I don't have any real problems. I know that there is a feud or something like that going on between the southsiders and northsider, but Kev and I are really close and are always there for eachother when needed, all because we both get our problems ignored when we need someone to help us with it. That was until we found each other. I decided to put my bags up inside the tree house. I then went back down and hid my car with some leaves and some other things, I then went back into the tree house and just sat down and thought about how my siblings would react to this, how Kev would react to this, and how the serpents would react to this. Yes they may have not listened to my problems, but I was always there to help other who needed it and to listen to them and their problems, no matter who it was. They were pretty thankful to have someone like me in the serpents, especially Toni, Fangs, and Sweet Pea, because even if they didn't have a problem or something wrong they need help with, and or if they need to tell someone something, I still listened to them. They were the closest people I had as friends. Us three grew really close. My mind went blank and then I started to think horrible things. Like 'Their going to think i'm a coward for running away.' and 'I've failed them all why am I still alive!?' And last but not least (this is going to be a big thought) 'I should just kill myself, it would be better for the if I was gone, They don't need me, Nobody needs me, I am useless, Why was I born?' I t kept on repeating and repeating in my head and I was so zoned out that I didn't even know I grabbed my pocket knife and opened it. I looked at the sharp blade, then my skin, and then once more at the sharp blade that is sitting in my hand. I put the blade to my skin and pushed it deep into my skin and while pushing it into my skin I swiped the blade across my skin and watched as the blood started to ooze out of my skin and start start to make a trail down to my and and drip to the floor. I did it few more times until my whole arms was covered in cuts and blood. I then started on the other arm and did the same thing. once I was finished with my arms I made a few more cuts on my legs to match the ones my 'parents' gave me. I watched as my blood oozed out of my skin and dripped to the floor. There was a puddle of my own blood surrounding me. I then grabbed a sweater that Sweet Pea had given to me as a give on after changing out of my bloody crop top and shorts and it to Sweat pants and long sleeves I just sat near the blood with the bloody pocket knife in hand and stared at both The bloody pocket knife and my blood putle. I then decided I would do a few more. I rolled up my sleeve on both the sweater and and long sleeve shirt, and then pulled up the pant legs on my sweatpants, then got to slicing my skin up once more.