BTS MAKNAE LINE ONESHOTS

MELANCHOLIC EUPHORIA (A JEON JUNGKOOK ONESHOT)

'But I wonder why,
Never did I notice it, but today.
Was it its majesty or,
The melancholy itself??'

Y/N finished writing her poem for that day. She heaved a huge sigh, before she closed her diary and went to sleep on her bed.
Y/N L/N was a girl of despondency and pessimism. She was suffering from a chronic depression as she thought that she had no one to herself. Though she had her parents, grandparents and thousand other lovely people whom she could call her friend. But, it was not what she had always looked or longed for. She wanted someone who would truly care for her. Someone who would LOVE her!!

She did all the activities, a normal person would do in life but deep down there she was depressed. She was deprived of the feeling of love. Maybe, she had some problems as well. No relationship in her life lasted for more than two months. She was always so pissed and she was always so annoyed. She couldn't find solace in any of her relationships.

But she had a soul to herself. A person whom she could rely on. He was Jeon Jungkook. Now, if you ever ask her what relationship she had with Jungkook, she would never reply and would stand there still in utmost silence.

Jungkook was just a simple acquaintance of the girl. They studied together in college, but were never buddies. But, she doesn't know why or how, she was always so close to him.

'Y/N would you like to come to Ralph's party tomorrow?', he asked her while binge watching Stranger Things with her.
'Ummm....no. I don't think, I would like to do so', she said after a long thinking about the matter.
'Ah, Y/N, if you remain to be like this, then how would you recover from your depression??', he asked.
'I don't want to', she replied almost instantly.
'This is not done', Jungkook grumbled.
'Why?? Whom would I live for?? I don't have anybody to myself', she said a bit annoyed though she knew it pretty well that she always had Jungkook to herself. But she somehow, didn't want to accept the fact that somewhere she liked Jungkook. She fooled her heart by saying that he was just another worthless acquaintance who would go away from her life in a speck of time or so.
'Why do you care about me so much?? Who am I to you, Jeon Jungkook??', she retorted out.

Jungkook's eyes widened when he heard such harsh words come out of his friend's mouth. He opened his mouth to say something but refrained himself.

'I am sorry', he said and went out of the house.

Y/N honestly felt sorry for her rude behavior but she was too stubborn to apologize to the only person whom she could look up to!! She didn't want to accept that she had a soft spot for him. She didn't want to make herself weak. She didn't believe in love even though she was desperate for some.

That was her illness. She was always in a dilemma. She wanted to have something but restrained herself from heading towards it!! That's why she could never be happy in life.

Whereas Jungkook here, was a jolly kind of guy. He knew he had feelings for Y/N, he wanted to accept them as well but he was afraid that she would reject him. He always wanted to help her come out of her problems, but she was too self conceited to even accept his help. Yet, she always wanted him by her  side.

It has been 2 weeks since Jungkook stomped out of the house. Y/N never came to apologize. So, Jungkook thought of resolving the issue on his own.

He went to Y/N's house and knocked on the door.

'Hey, it's you. Come in', she said as she pulled Jungkook into the house.
'I thought you were pissed at me', he said.
'Oh how can I ever be pissed at you', she replied.
'Oh really?? I am glad to hear that', he said with a tinge of sarcasm in his voice,'and why would you not be pissed at me?? Who am I to you??', he asked.

Y/N was taken aback. She never in her dear life expected him to ask her such a question. She didn't dare to look at his eyes. She had no answer. If she had said that he was just his friend, it would be a lie as deep down she knew that this man was something more than 'just friend' to her. And if she accepted that she loves him, it would hurt her own conceit. She therefore, chose to be silent.

'I knew you would have no answer!!', he said as he let out a small chuckle.

He again stomped out of the house without apologising to her. He didn't do what he had come to do.

A month after this, Y/N repented her behavior. She missed Jungkook. His obsession with banana milk, his nose scrunch while laughing out out loud, his bunny smile, his soothing voice, his everything!! So, she finally thought of accepting the fact that she loves him and resolving their daily bickerings.

Y/N called Jungkook to the nearest cafè and made her way towards the mentioned destination.

When she saw Jungkook, her heart melted right at that moment. She felt a sudden gush of ecstasy run through her nerves. She found a new confidence in herself. Probably, that was love!!

She immediately went to her beloved and hugged him tight.
'Why?? What happened??', he asked as a natural smile nonchalantly spread across his face while he hugged her as well.
'Nothing. Just felt like engulfing you in my embrace', she said in a romantic way.
'Why did you call me??', he asked her once they had settled themselves.
Y/N looked down.
'I missed you', she said. She couldn't say that she loved him.
'Oh, well, I have something to tell you as well. Umm...I am sorry. That day I came to apologize but somehow your attitude enraged me. I am sorry', he said.

Y/N felt bad that she couldn't apologize because of her pride. She wanted love but she was herself being a hindrance to love. She, all of a sudden, realised that it was not that she had no one to herself. It was that she herself didn't let anyone come into her life. Her introspection caught her off guard. She realized that complaining against her life was easy but solving the problem was difficult. Being desperate for love was easy but finding love was not at all easy. And now that she had finally found her true love, she would never let it go.

'Am I that important to you??', she asked Jungkook with gleaming eyes.
'Oh of course, you are', he said as he sipped on his espresso.
'Why?? Who am I to you??', she asked.
'Well, let me think. Who are you to me?? How about, I am your Prince Charming and you are my Cinderella!!', he finally blurted out.
'Huh?? What do you mean??', she asked as she never expected this answer.
'Isn't it obvious?? I love you', he said.
'Really?? Why would you love a girl like me??', she asked to clarify what she had heard was correct.
'Umm....I don't know. You always make my heart flutter and make me happy. It's always you whom I can look up to. I guess that's enough to decide that I am in love with you, isn't it??', he said.
'Yes. I guess so as well. I love you too', she said.
'Really?? Woah!! You confessed. Wow!! It must mean that I am really someone special to you', he said amazed.
'Oh you are', she said nonchalantly.
'Well, who am I to you??', he asked with a cocky smirk.
'You are my Prince Charming and I am your Cinderella', she repeated his own words as she pressed her lips on Jungkook's soft ones.

It has been another fifty years after their confession. They were parents to two adults and grandparents to four kids.
The old couple was going through the albums of old days as they reminisced all the memories they had shared together when they were young.
'I really wonder how we lasted so long', said Y/N to her husband.
'Well, I had a intuition that we would last forever', he said as he kissed his wife's forehead softly.
Y/N smiled to her husband and pecked his lips.

So, Jungkook's small intuition lived amidst that melancholic euphoria. Love lasted. Love overpowered their conceits. Love won!! Love triumphed over their prides!!

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It's the first of September today. It's the birthday of our baby maknae, Jeon Jungkook. Amidst all that I am going through, today's date blossomed a small spark of happiness in my heart. All I can hope for is that he achieves all that he aspires for!! May he stay healthy and safe forever!! Else is the Almighty's wish!!

Thank you.