(A/n: Hello my lovely readers. I decided to this challenge with my girl Candace, none of you have to read this, but if you'd like to know me better, go right ahead. Love you all!)
Day 1: Write Ten Facts About Yourself.
1) I have severe trust issues and fear that everyone that comes into my life will walk out. I didn't just become like this. When I was six, both my godmother and godfather walked out of my life. I was young, so of course, I thought I did something wrong. To this day I still believe that. Despite how many times my mother has lead me to believe otherwise, I cannot help but think I did something wrong. So whenever I become close with someone new, I do everything in my power to make them happy and please them. I don't want to lose another important person, ever again.
2) I bottle things up inside until I explode over the smallest thing. I feel like other people depend on me to be the one person in their lifes that is always happy and smiling. So, if I'm upset, I know they'll be upset. And I defentiely do not want that. So, I don't tell anyone if I'm upset, and I don't cry, and I just smile. But it catches up to me. I often have days where I get so overwhelmed by everything, if someone says the wrong thing to me, I will literally just cry, and everything that has been eating away at me will just come falling out. It's not the best way to handle things, but it's just the way I work.
3) I strongly believe in helping others' dreams come true. When my Grandfather passed away, my aunt gave me a poem. It was supposed to be from my Grandfather, saying how he was doing okay in heaven. There was one line that I will never forget, it said that if you can make someone smile, and help someone along the way, then you can go to sleep at night and say your day was not in vain. So, I believe that as a person, I need to help others in anyway that I can, because that's what my Grandfather would want me to do. And knowing he would be proud of me is what makes me happy.
4) I want to work for the Make a Wish Foundation when I get older. My Grandfather was diagnosed with Cancer in 2006. At the time, I was only six years old. Over the span of four years, he was diagnosed with four different cancers, defeating three of them. Sadly, in 2010, Brain Cancer took his life. I will never get over having to see my Grandfather taken away from me like that. Personally, I do not know what having cancer, or any type of disease feels like, and I feel so blessed to say that. But I know other children in the world are not lucky enough to say that. So, it is my dream to get to help their dreams come true. I know how satisfying it was to see my Grandfather smile through that time, despite all the pain and chemo, so I want other families to get the chance to see their loved one smile during that rough time.
5) Justin Drew Bieber saved my life. When my Grandfather did pass away, it was a lot to handle. I didn't smile, didn't laugh, didn't eat. It felt like everyday was dragging on and on. I had known about Justin since 2008, but my obsession didn't start until around this time. All I had to do was pop in my earphones, close my eyes, and just let him sing to me. As dumb as it sounds, I highly doubt I would be here without him. Justin, if by some weird chance, you see this, thank you so much. You are the reason I am here right now.
6) I am quiet and shy... Until you get to know me. I cannot, and I swear this is true, be myself around people when I first meet them. It's too much for them to handle. I am crazy, and loud, and weird, and dirty, and just, an overall strange person. I get asked by my friends on a daily basis if I'm high, and of course the answer is no, it's just, when I'm with the correct people, I am happy and comfortable, thus letting me be myself. Ask Melinda, Kat, and Andrea. They know exactly whatr I'm talking about.
7) I am awkward. I honestly do not know what is wrong with me. I am like so awkward around everything and everyone. I am a synonym to that word. (I can't even say the word synonym). If you've ever seen me unawkward, well, jk, that's never happened because I've been an awko taco all my life.
8) I really believe Ginny could happen. Don't judge me. I cannot mentally picture myself with anyone but Vinny. I have a gut feeling that someay we'll be together. I don't care when it is, whether it's when we're sixteen or sixty, someday I'll be with him. This love I have towards him isn't anything I've ever felt before. He's my baby and Ginny will happen :*
9) I have an anxiety disorder. It's literally the worst thing ever. Every normal person overthinks and worries, right? This make me do those things, but ten times worse. I manage to throw myself into a headache over simple things, like what to wear to school, and what the answer to a question is. Although it's not something to be proud of, and something I would get rid of if I could, it makes me, well me. And I will take anything that makes me unique.
Last, but certainly not least...
10) I am eternally grateful for each and everyone of you. Honestly, when I first made this account, I thought it would just be something I do to occupy me over the summer. I wrote Falling For You, and when it got it's first vote, I started crying. I never thought I would be able to accomplish something like that, I never even expected more than one person to read my stories. Now there's what, over a hundred of you out there? I will never be able to thank you all enough. Now KMTTP has 50,000+ reads, and F&A, FFY & it's sequel have 20,000+ reads. Crazy. It's absolutely crazy. This website and you guys opened my eyes, made me realize my love for not only poetry, but writing all around. And, hopefully someday, if I ever get my first book published, it will be dedicated to each and everyone of you, for supporting me along the way. I think of you all as my extended, dysfuctional, fangirling family. And I love you for always being there for me. Thank you for sticking around for my first twelve stories, here's to twelve more! Smooches <3
