Life As I Know It

Dreaming?

A month had passed and we were all getting along. I was actually starting to enjoy being here. Chris had been sleeping on the couch every night since I came on the bus which at this point I didn't care.

I was totally over this summer season because it got fucking hot out standing around selling merch. I can't imagine how hot they were on stage, fuck that. Hot seasons made me crabby and whine more then usual. "So I have something to tell you!". Autumn quietly tried to say. "What's that?". She gave me a look and raised her eyebrow at me with a wicked smirk. "Really now?". She nodded fast while smiling. "Yes we did and it was great. I really like him. I wonder how things are going to be after we aren't on tour with them anymore". Damn that was a good question. Grant it I know that wouldn't be for quite a few months but still I never thought about that. "I'm sure it will be fine". She nodded. "Ya I bet your right". She had a playful smile on her face. "You need to get it in... God knows it's been years". My mouth dropped and I smacked her with a t shirt. "Shut up!". "Oh come on Shelby, don't you want to know what it feels like to be with someone that you exactly want to be with?". She did have a point but I would never tell her that.

They finished and we started packing stuff away to leave. They were amazingly happy and over the moon. Autumn and I cooked dinner for everyone and then we sat around bullshiting until it got late. "We're going to bed". "Goodnight". I said to Autumn as she went to her bed. "I'll be there in a minute babe. I'm going to have a cigarette". Ricky sat down across from me at the table. "Well hello handsome. How was your show?". He nodded as he exhaled. "Good. I enjoyed it.. Far too hot tho". "Bet ya just love that when your covered in all black". "Oh for sure". "So how are you two?". I tried not to overly smile as I asked. "Oh my god she told you didn't she?". I started to laugh. "I don't know what your talking about!". He rolled his eyes as he put his short. "Night shel. Good luck against the giant". "Why?". "He is laying down back there, think the couch is getting the best of him".

At this point I didn't care. I changed in the bathroom into my night clothes then went to the bedroom and jumped onto the bed. "Whatcha doing?". He peeked up from his phone. "Thinking, listening to music". I rolled my eyes. Well I guess he just doesn't want to talk or hates me. Whichever. I crawled over to my space on the other side of him and slipped down into the covers. "Well goodnight". He mumbled and I shut my eyes to quickly fall asleep.

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Have you ever woken up in the midnight of the night to feel the warmth of the body next to you and feel a curtain euphoria and bliss? An enlightened feeling as you closed your eyes, almost totally back to sleep?

That's what I felt. I opened my eyes to see Chris asleep facing me. He looked so comfortable and all I wanted to do was press myself against him and sleep. I moved closer to him and curled up as I felt his arm wrap around my back. I looked up at him and closed my eyes. He would probably scream at me later for cuddling him but fuck it I haven't been this comfortable in years.

"Shel?". I back away quickly in hopes he wasn't mad. Trying to pretend I'd been on my side of the bed the whole time "Ya. Go back to sleep". His sleepy voice was so sexy sounding. His eyes were cracked open slightly and he reached his hands up, grabbing my face to look at him. I could taste my heart beat as he pulled me close to him. He grinned and softly placed his lips on mine. Slowly kissing me causing lips to part. My heart was racing as every kissed seemed to get deeper. He rolled over on top of me and ran his finger tips lightly on my hip trailing to my ribs. He kissed me for a little while longer before biting my lip... And rolling back over.

Tease.

He pulled me into his chest and closed his eyes as he ran his fingers threw my hair.

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I woke up in the morning to a cold side of the bed with no body next to me. "Shel?". I sat up to see Ricky. I couldn't help but ran my fingers lightly over my lip. "Ya?". He cocked his head. "It's time to get ready". I nodded and hopped out of bed to get dressed.

I walked outside to find Autumn already wide awake and getting a jump on things. I couldn't help but think... Did I dream it? "Hello earth to Shelby, you in there?". She jokingly knocked on my head. "Huh.. Oh ya. Sorry". "What's with you?". "Well last night.... I think Chris and I kissed. It felt so real but he was no where to be found this morning". She sighed. "Well isn't that Chris right there?". I looked over and she was right it was Chris flirting with some pretty girl and he was smiling. He actually looked happy. "Looks like I dreamed it". She shrugged as she unloaded more boxes.

I knew it couldn't have happened. I mean who would ever want me. I attracted guys like Emmett and that's all I was ever going to get.

(Sorry so short again. I won't be able to post for a week or so:( boo but I promise when I do I will post a couple new chapters. I also have an idea for a sequel already ;) so tell me what you think. Was she dreaming? Did they kiss? And if so then why is he being a dick again?

Some big conflict coming up involving Ricky! Keep a watch out!)