Life As I Know It

When Does It Get Better?

Tattooed man is Shelbys ex Emmett or as Autumn called him in part one "Tall dark and handsome". Said with totally hated and sarcasm

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Emmett why are you so angry, I was with Autumn finishing a paper. Why are you screaming?

Tears streamed down my face as he hit his hand on the wall and placing hands on the side of me while I was backed into the wall so I couldn't move.

"You lying bitch then why didn't you text me when I texted you! You were fucking cheating on me. You are mine and you shouldn't be such a disrespectful bitch to your boyfriend"

I was scared. Hell I was terrified and the tears weren't stopping. I couldn't look at him.

He grabbed my face hard and slammed my head into the wall causing it to immediately give me a headache and I felt a warm feeling behind my head.

"Look at me!"

"I can't! Your scaring me! Please let go baby! Please!".

He raised his hand and smacked me across the face.

"Shelby! Shel!". I woke up jolted out of my dream to someone standing over me saying my name. I felt like I was still in my dream and was terrified as shit as I back against the wall crying and kicking a blanket off as my chest tightened. I couldn't breath and the light came on.

"Shelby". I saw a face in front of me but I couldn't focus on who it was. It was blurry and I was in shock. My tears overwhelmed me and I put my hands on my face but failed cause my hands were shaking.

"Autumn! Ricky!". I heard footsteps quickly come and and stop at entry door way. "What happened!". "I don't know, she was crying out and I woke her and she..". Autumn came running to the bed. "Shel, shel. It's Autumn, it's okay. I promise, he isn't here!". Ricky and Chris looked at each other in question. I was finally coming too and wiped some tears of my face. "He was here, I felt it. I felt it all over again!". "Shel its a bad dream, he is gone, he is hundreds and thousands of miles away. Your in shock, it's okay". She sighed and looked up at Ricky. "Can you get her a glass of water and a cigarette?". He nodded and walked off. He quickly came back and already had the cigarette lit for me. I tried my best to smile up at him even if it was pain. He looked sad and confused. And to my surprise so did Chris. Autumn sat on the bed with me for a couple minutes. "Are you okay now?". I shakily nodded. "I'm going to lay back down if you need me just call out to me, okay". Ricky and Autumn went back to Ricky's bed. Chris stood there for a minute before turning to head out. "Chris wait".

He turned around and looked at me. "Ya?". I looked up at him pitifully and still completely shaken from my dream. "Do you think you could just sit in here with me for a couple minutes". He seemed a little surprised and nodded as he sat down on the bed. "I'm sorry I woke you". "Don't be, I'm glad you did". He laid down on the end of the bed with his head up on one hand. "Does that happen a lot... The bad dream?". I painfully tried to smile. "No. This has actually gotten a lot better. First one this year". "Wanna talk about it?". I shook my head no. "Only Autumn knows". He frowned for a moment then the expression cleared off his face. "Well I can give you my laptop and you can watch a movie or something to help you fall asleep?".

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I stretched out looking around to see where I was sleeping. I was sleeping in Chris bed with him no where in sight which was alright by me. I check my phone and it said 11:30. Jesus I never sleep this late. I could smell something fantastic. When I got up I had noticed that I was in a shirt that wasn't mine or Autumn's cause it was too large and a pair of boy shorts that I knew were mine that Autumn must have gotten for me before I passed out. I ran my fingers threw my hair as I walked out to Ricky and Autumn standing in front of the stove and Chris feet hanging off the couch that he was much too tall for. "Good morning". I looked over at Balz smiling at me then back at his game. Autumn dashed from the stove to hug me. "Glad to see your alive and okay. Ricky is making breakfast". Chris snorted with his eyes closed. "You mean attempting to". "Fuck you". He threw a piece of raw bacon at him but it missed and hit the window. I stood at the end of the couch where Chris's head was and soft ran my hand threw the back of his hair and his finger nails lightly on his neck. He opened his eyes and looked up at me. "Thanks". He smiled up half ass like and shut his eyes again. "Autumn we can hang out for awhile then unfortunately we have to go back home. I've got some homework that I need to finish". She pouted but nodded her head.

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We ended up hanging for awhile longer then we planned that was okay by me. I exchanged numbers with everyone else since Ricky was the only one that had mine. I hope the next time we hang out we won't have an issues like me freaking out. God that was embarrassing.

"So you and Ricky? What's going on there?"

"I don't know what you're talking about". She grinned. "Oh come on! Drop the act women! I think he likes you, did you see how quick he was to letting you stay the night in his bunk he was?". She shrugged. "He was probably just trying to get it in. "You didn't did you!?". My jaw dropped as she smiled. "No. Not yet at least. I thought about it. Then Chris called us when you had your panic attack and I couldn't sleep with him cause I realized I wanted to spend more time with him more that". "Ya I'm sorry about the freak out". She sighed. "Shel, I do understand. But on the plus side it's been over two years since we moved and he is still back home". I smiled. She had a point.

"So what was with your and Chris? I noticed that he stayed in the room after we left. What happened?". I couldn't remember honestly. "Honestly he offered me his laptop so I could watch movies to pass back out and that's the last thing I remember". She looked at me in question then back at the road. "Text Ricky and ask him to find out if you don't want to ask Chris".

"Hey Rick do you think you could find out what happened after Chris offered me his laptop last night".

He took about twenty minutes before he texted me back.

"He said that you both sat there watching Halloween and past out. He woke up to you crying and when you stopped crying he went and slept on the couch"

Hm so he couldn't stand to be near me, that's cool. Guess I won't text him and tell him thank you.

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(Well what do you think so far? Does Chris not want to be around Shelby. Does she have more that she is hiding and holding back? What about Autumn and Ricky? Let me know!(: )