Life As I Know It

That happened?

"Shel! Why do you always space out!". I looked over to see Autumn looking at me. "Sorry hun". She smiled. "So how are things between you and Ricky?". She got angry pretty quick. "He slept on the couch last night again and we haven't spoken today. I don't think we will sleeping together tonight either". I didn't know who to feel bad for. Autumn cause she is my best friend or Ricky because Autumn was trying to make him make hard decisions way too soon in the relationship. She rolled her eyes. "It doesn't matter to me anymore". Some girls started coming over, super excited looking at the shirts and hoodies. "Omg he is so hot". "I know right. I like Ryan though!". They were so cute. "Hey girls anything I can help you with?". "How much is that hoodie?". "35". She paid me and I handed her the hoodie while her friend was deciding. "Don't look now but someone is coming your way Shelby". I looked up to see Chris heading over and the two girls flipped out wanting a picture with him. "Omg I love you!". He smiled. "Well thank you so much, glad you enjoy our music". Her eyes lit up like diamonds. "Hey Shelby..". I looked up while handing the other girl her shirt. "What's up Chris?". He grinned. "Alright". He said goodbye to the girls and walked off back to the guys leaving me confused as fuck. "What was that about?". Autumn asked. "I have no idea honestly..".

The it hit me.

He meant what I asked him...

That is what he meant right?

Oh god.

My nerves were getting the best of me.

He wouldn't have implied that here though... Right? Especially right here in front of everyone.

I was freaking out.

Do I just asked him if that's what he meant.

I pulled out my phone to text him.

-hey what exactly were you saying alright to?

I waited and waited but nothing.

"Shelby!". I looked up at autumn. "Shelby come on we have to pack up and put stuff away". I grabbed a box and started hauling it to the trailer. "Sorry Audy. Just been thinking a lot". She smiled. "It's okay, I understand how you feel. Ricky and I are STILL fighting. I'm almost ready to give up".

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After we got everything it away we sat around with the guys and bullshitted while eating dinner. Chris said nothing to my text and he was sitting right in front of me. He was probably just fucking with me. Dick. I tell him something private and he plays on my emotions. "Ricky will you short me?". He handed me his cigarette. "Just have it". "Thanks". I smoke part of it and got up. "I'm showering and going to bed. Goodnight". They said goodnight as I walked away. I got out of the shower and hopped into bed. I turned on a horror movie on the laptop as I laid down yawning. I could hear and the guys out in front chatting away and laughing their asses off about something.

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"Shel?". I heard a voice call out to me. "Open your eyes". I opened my eyes a crack to see Chris looking down at me. I started to scream and he covered my mouth. "Shh the others are sleeping. I'm going to remove my hand but you have to be quiet, understood". I nodded and when he removed his hand I lightly shoved him. "Give me a fucking heart attack!". He chuckled a bit. "Couldn't help it". I rolled my eyes and laid back down. He started to slowly to crawl on top of me. He stared down at me and smiled. "You never did answer my text". "I know". "Well what did you mean?". "What did you think I meant ". "Chris that's not funny!". "I mean alright to the question you asked me". I was nervous right then and there. "Did you still want that?". I opened my mouth to say something but words wouldn't come out so I nodded. He sat up on his knees and held out his hand. I placed my hand in his and he pulled me up to my knees so I was facing him. "Can I ask you a question?". He nodded. "Of course". "What took you so long to answer me? Most guys would be chomping at the bit to get in bed with a girl". "Well after you told me what you did I couldn't just do it. Had to think about it. Now can I ask you a question? ....how long has it been for you?". I went red in the face. "Years.... Close to four years. Like I said I tried to avoid my ex and sex. I only did it a couple times... Well he did it". He took a second to say something. "Alright well, just promise to say stop if you want to stop". I nodded as he ran his finger tips lightly on my stomach to my hips and then stopped and looked at me as he sighed. "What? Did you change your mind?". He shook his head no. "No I didn't, I just can't believe you were put in that situation and this is your first experience you agree to". I shrugged my shoulders. "Can't change it". He smiled as he wrapped an arm around me and kissed me deeply. He bit my lower lip causing me to let out a little whimper. He grabbed my ponytail and let it down as he ran his fingers threw my hair. He pushed me back on the bed lightly and he looked down on me smiling before leaning down and climbing on top of me. He trailed his kisses down my neck to my shoulder blade as I closed my eyes feeling every little sensation. He lifted my shirt over my head leaving me in my under wear since I sleep in just a tank top and underwear. I instantly became shy and tried to cover my chest. He sat up and looked at me. "Uncover. No need to be embarrassed". I slowly uncovered. I had never willing shown another person my body like this. He groaned lowly and bit his lip ring before leaning down and kissing me. Trailing them lower and putting my breast in his mouth causing my to suddenly gasp out. "Shhh everyone is sleeping". His fingers moving down and inside my underwear playing with me. Jesus I had never felt this. After a little bit he sat up to remove his shirt and slowly unbuckled his pants and removed those as well. I stared at the sight before me, never in my life did I think I would see a heavily tattooed man naked looking down on me. Let alone Chris of all people. He crawled down to me and kissed me. "You sure still?". I nodded as I could feel him slowly entering. I closed my eyes and bit down on my lip, feeling every small tight movement. I opened my eyes and locked with his as his slowly started to go deeper. I panted threw kisses and his hands entangled in my hair. "Oh baby". I wrapped my legs tighter around him and I wanted to cry out. He wrapped his arms under my back and placed his hands on my shoulders to push himself deeper causing me to moan loudly but he quickly kissed me to shut me up. "Shh baby everyone is sleeping". He smiled. "I-I'm sorry". I tried to manage words and it was impossible. He moved his arms and held my face. "Chris..". I couldn't manage anymore and I closed my eyes as I came a part for him. He kissed me. "How do you feel?". My hands rested on his shoulder. "That was amazing". He smirked. "Well I'm ready to finish. Are you able to go again.. A little harder?". I nodded as he quickly thrusted deep inside me and covered my mouth to cover my noise. He continued to slam into me, going harder and deeper. It didn't long before I was ready to come again but this time he followed in my foot steps holding me close as we finished together. I was out of breath and in total bliss. He rolled off of me and pulled me into his chest as he ran his fingers lightly on my skin causing goosebumps.

I nuzzled his chest as my eyes became heavy.

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