Misunderstood

Chapter 11

                 Liam listened to her words, seeing the tears streaming down her face, what made him just wrap his arms even tighter around her and hugged her. He knew that she needed to cry after what she told to him. He couldn't even imagine the pain she felt on that day and the guilt she carried during the last few years. Even though everything happened pretty recently it shouldn't be something she should be carrying with 20 years.

- It's okay love. You are okay. – He whispered in her ear as he kept holding her tightly, feeling Alex holding his shirt as she kept crying. – It was not your fault Alex. You need to stop thinking like that.

- It was me who distracting my father. It was all my fault. – She said against his chest, feeling her tears wetting his shirt. – She was without her seat belt and it was all my fault. If it wasn't for that, she would be alive now and everything would be okay and it is not.

- But it wasn't your fault and you can't keep on blaming yourself because it is not true. It was an accident Alex and you did nothing wrong. – He said, feeling his heart squeeze with the thought of losing one of his sisters, which was something that he couldn't even imagine.

- Everyone keeps on blaming me. You are the only one seeing that way because everyone points their fingers to me and they keep on reminding me, every single day, that it is my fault. They keep on reminding me the day she died and how she died and my life has been a living hell since then Liam. I can't get rid of it because my parents follow me everywhere! I can't do anything without being judge and my father has been terrible since then. He has been drinking so much that he ends up doing bad things and I don't think I can handle this anymore. He leaves me crazy Liam and what you saw today it's how my life is every single day! Noting changes and I don't need him to keep on reminding me what I did.

- Stop Alex. It was not your fault okay?? – Liam said nodding a lot with what she was saying. – It was an accident and that is what you need to keep on focusing yourself.

- She knows what happened on that day ad I just wished she was here with me. Things would be so much easier. – She said as she cleaned her face, looking over the tree. – She was 15 when she died and I was just one year younger than she was. We had so many plans together. We can to Brighton pretty young to start a new life but we always wanted to go back to Portugal. Our mum's family is from there and we always got along with them but then the accident happened and nothing was the same. She wanted to go to uni with me in here. She was more turned to Mathematics and Science, which I am terrible with. – She said giggling a little with that thought. – I want arts and learn more languages. – She said smiling. – How can someone's life disappear in a second?? How can that happened?? – She asked herself, feeling her voice trembling a lot.

- Her life didn't disappear because you are here and you are keeping her alive, no matter what. She is always with you okay? She is always with you and you can't give up. You have to think of what she would like to see and you have to be strong enough to show her that. She wanted you to be happy Alex and to live life fully. She wanted you to follow your dreams and you are doing that!! You are starting a life, slowly! This will never be easy and it shouldn't be this hard, but you can do this okay?? – He said looking directly to her eyes, meaning his words and really believing in what he was saying to her.

- How can I live my life if I have my parent's following me? – She asked, nodding a lot as she looked at him. – It's impossible and that is something I don't understand. They hate me but they keep on living with me. Why?? They hate me and they wished I was dead, so why not letting me go away?