Challenge Accepted: College

Chapter 5: James

Gabriel tsked, how did he lose it? God he was so forgetful "Shit, I lost my phone- it's probably back at the party I'm gonna go get it- you okay on your own?" Dean nodded waving him off "Yeah, just be careful." He continued his way back to the apartment and Gabriel headed back to the dorms.

The place was a mess but he managed to find his phone sitting on the snacks table before he started to walk back when the phone started to ring.

"Find your phone yet?"

Gabriel laughed at his friend "What do you think dumbass?" Dean chuckled "Just hurry back or I'm gonna eat all of our leftovers."

"Okay- fine I'll start running." He hung up just when a voice spoke from behind him that sent chills down his spine "Who was that your boyfriend?" He slowly turned around "I knew it was you, you look good- still slutting around?"

Gabriel hid how badly he wanted to throw up "Fuck off." He turned around to leave but James grabbed his arm running in front of him "Woah- Woah, where are you going?- we haven't even gotten started."

"There's nothing to start." He winced when James stroked his hair and then yanked it and hit his head against the wall, Gabriel stirred for a second but then managed to deck him hard "You son of a bitch-" James punched him twice and shoved him into a closet.

Whatever happened after that was kind of a blur to Gabriel just flashes of being pushed against a wall and having his pants pulled down and James..

Gabriel groaned, the room was empty James having left he manged to get his pants back on and though his head was pounding, he stood and grabbed his phone put of his pocket, he had dozens of messages from Dean.

How long had he been out?

He looked at the time and he'd only been gone for forty minutes, he winced at the pain in his ass and willed himself not to cry as he realised what happened to him "Oh god."

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Gabriel knocked urgently on the door since he wasn't able to find his keys; he'd been keeping himself together since James left and he managed to get back to the apartment, though he was still shaking like crazy.

Dean opened the door with a beer in his hand looking slightly worried "Gabr-" He cut himself off when he looked at his friend, his clothes were messed up and his hair the same- not to mention Gabriel's face said it all.

Something bad had happened.

Gabe ran into the apartment and sat on the couch shaking slightly probably from the cold of outside "Gabe?- what happend?" Dean asked concerningly staring at him. Gabe ignored the tears that were streaming down his face "I saw James...and he.. "

Dean was confused "James?- the guy who raped you before?-" Gabriel nodded and reluctantly told Dean the whole story of what happend his bestfriend listening while rage slowly began to fill Dean- the thought of someone doing that to Gabriel- just made him angrier.

But one thing Gabriel made very clear was that he didn't want to do anything about it. Gabriel wanted to just change and go to sleep but Dean insisted he take a shower and Gabriel had stared at him with this almost serious puzzled look "Why do you care so much?"

"'Cause you're my bestfriend Gabriel, I love you and I care about you alright?"

"..Fine, I'll take a shower." Gabe muttered and headed into the bathroom, he stayed in the water for about an hour, washing the blood and the feeling of James' hands from his body- it didn't help much but he had to get out at some point.

He wore his burgundy Stanford sweater and a pair joggers and he made a mental note to burn his other clothes; he headed back into the living room where Dean was "You okay?- that was a pretty long shower." Dean said looking up from his laptop. "Peachy." Gabriel gave a tight smile "What are you doing?"

Dean shrugged a little too quickly "Nothing." He muttered and slammed his laptop shut, "Dude..what the fuck are you hiding?"

"Nothing."

Gabriel scoffed "Then lemme see-" He grabbed for the laptop but Dean shielded it away which then started a rousing game of keep away, which Gabriel won at flipping open the device.

"Army boot camp application?..basic training?" Gabriel blinked "Wait what?..Dean?"

"..I was thinking of enlisting." Dean admitted, looking away, Gabriel scrolled through the page "Can you even do half of this stuff?"

"I used to run drills with my dad, I've been going to the gym everyday and on runs since we started school and I'm getting pretty good at maintaining a schedule." He sighed "I haven't told anyone- especially Cas so please-"

"You were serious?- when you said you wanted to enlist you weren't joking?" Gabriel shook his head "Dude, you're my bestfriend you can't die on me!"

Dean rolled his eyes "I'm not gonna die."

"You really wanna get your ass shot off in some stan somewhere?!"

"Don't quote Shameless at me." Dean warned, sighing he sat with Gabriel "Look man, college isn't for me okay?- and I really wanna do this."

"Dean you've been doing really good- what about Cas?- and Sam..what about me?"

"It's just boot camp Gabe- yes I'll be gone for nine weeks but I want to do this Gabe, I always have, it's the only reason I had to graduate highschool, I'm not booksmart like Cas or Sammy- but I'm good at this." He gave a smile.

"Do you even have a plan?"

Dean nodded excitedly, "I'm gonna spend the rest of the year training myself before I start bootcamp, I'll still be finishing my degree." He told him, "My dad said it's a good way to have a little advantage."

"..Fine- I still don't think it's a good idea but fine. Can't wait till Cas hears this." Gabriel stood and went upstairs; he had a pack of smokes in his room and really needed one right now. Dean didn't want him to be alone so he followed Gabe upstairs a few minutes later and found him outside.

It was open and he was leaning over the balcony, just staring into the dark sky.

The smoke was to calm his nerves and stop him from sobbing uncontrollably, he blamed himself more than James- if he hadn't froze- if he'd just tried harder then maybe- "Gabe?" Dean joined him on the balcony.

Gabriel didn't look up "Please don't tell anyone." He said dryly blowing out the smoke and Dean shook his head "I won't- promise."

"Thanks." Gabriel stared out the window, it was quite for a few minutes but Dean wasn't going to leave Gabriel alone "..What am I gonna tell Sam?..how do I even..."

"-He's not gonna blame you-"

"I blame me!" Gabriel exclaimed suddenly, he sighed and hung his head "I blame me Dean."

"Don't- you can't, think like that Gabe."

"Twice, this is the second time I let the same guy take advantage of me."

"Gabriel you were thirteen he was older than you- stronger than you."

Gabriel nodded brokenly, it was a horrible feeling, being powerless "Yeah everybody seems to be" He walked to the bed and threw his smoke away, "I'm gonna go to bed."

"...Alright, I'll see you in the morning."

"Yeah."

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