Drowning in Memories

Five

"Your readers are looking forward to your next project," I heard my editor said in another line.

"I explained to you my condition," I replied while moving the beers from the plastic bag to the fridge.

"But it's been a year, you should move on, stop caving yourself from memories. Free yourself it isn't your fault—"

"If they are my fan or something, they will understand where my feelings are coming from."

"You didn't even tell them the real reason behind your hiatus." He said and I felt the stress on his voice.

"I will give you one week, submit a new story. If you didn't you need to say goodbye on your career."

"But—" he cut my words and "No buts. One week, Lilac. One week," he said and ended the call.

I let a deep sigh and stare the beer in my fridge. "I don't want to lose my career, it's my only gift for them. What should I do?" I asked myself. I took one beer and went to my room.

"I guess, I don't have a choice but to go back," I said and wear my eye-glasses and starts to type words on my laptop.

"Just kill me" I yelled back at him. My both hands are tied and he's pointing a gun in my head. I look up to him and made sure that he can see the truth behind my eyes.

"I will don't worry," he replied. Tears started to fall from his eyes.

"Do you even love me?" he asked and I laughed.

"Are you serious? Do you think someone will love you? A monster like y— shit." I couldn't finish my words because he shoots me in my legs. I saw rage on his eyes.

"Stop."

"No, I will not. I will tell you how you killed—"

"Argh." I groan he shot my shoulder.

"I told you to stop." He said and shot me twice on my shoulder.

Blood starts to come out from my mouth and he keeps shooting bullets in my body. I smiled faintly. He stops and drops the gun on the floor. I felt his arms around my body.

"I'm sorry. Don't leave me. I'm sorry." He keeps murmuring in my ears. I raised my hands and touch his face. He looks at me with and I saw his face, his tears flowing non-stop same as my blood.

"Stop crying. You did a great job today." I said while caressing his face. He held my hands and close his eyes.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry," he said. I tried to shake my head but I couldn't I lost too much blood and couldn't move a bit other than my hands.

"Listen, do not ever show mercy, do not show emotion, and do not let your feelings eat you," I said and coughs blood.

"Stop. Stop talking, I will bring you to the hospital." He said and tried to lift my body but I held his arm.

"You don't have too. Just remember that I will always be there for you." I said and I heard his voice slowly fading away as I close my eyes. For eternal.

The end.

As soon as I finished typing, I click the publish button. And close my eyes to rest for a bit. It's been two months when I decided to write again, the truth is, I made this months ago but I am just too lazy to clean the ideas and plot of this story.

I stand up and went to my kitchen to grab some beer and food also, I heard the sound of the can when I opened it and it's kinda refreshing. I heard my phone ring; I look around and I remember that I put it on my table in my room. I went back to my room again and find my phone.