Drowning in Memories

Four

I felt my phone vibrates in my pocket. I took it and click the reject button, I was about to put it back inside but it vibrates again, I creased my brows when I saw the caller. "I remembered telling her that I am on vacation."

"I do apologize Sir, but Mr. Song, our investor from Thailand wants to talk to you right now." I heard my secretary.

"Tell him, I will contact him later."

"But he is already here sir." He replied "and doesn't like the idea that you make him wait."

"He also said that he couldn't cancel his flight because of your last minute of notice." I didn't reply.

"And he is one of our top investors too." After a couple of minutes, I heard him "I will send him home. Forgive me for my incompetent skill sir." Then he ended the call. I don't want my employee to think that way. He is the one who stay as my secretary for the longest time. I dialed his number. "Hello—"

"Tell him I will be there after twenty-minutes." And ended the call.

"Be well, I haven't started anything yet." I said and left.

Lilac's POV

"Where I am?" that's the first words I said as soon as I opened my eyes. I look around but all I can see is white wall, the smell of hospital lingers in my nostril, I quickly cover my nose, I hate hospital smell, it brings back memories of that day. I notice the bandage on my wrist and the apparatus that attach on my body. I quickly removed all of it and jolted out of the hospital bed. My head spun in my sudden move. I sit for a while and gather myself first. I saw my clothes not too far, and I wore them again. I don't care if I look weird, the most important thing for me right now is to leave this place. I simply peeked out of my room, when I confirmed that there aren't nurses at the hallway. I run. But I stop from my track and quickly turn my back when I see one of the hospital rooms open, I simply look if that is a nurse or doctor but it turns out that it's only a family member whoever is inside of that room. I saw them look at me weirdly and I just look down on the floor and continue my escape. I saw the lights. I mean the entrance; I know I will grab the attention if I use the entrance but what should I do? This hospital is too huge and I couldn't find the exit, plus the bloodstain on my pajama I tried my best to hide and I did. Or not?

"Excuse me miss, I need to—" I tilted my gaze and my eyes widen in shock fuck it's a nurse. He slowly looked at my wrist and I did too. Oh, shit I forgot to remove the hospital tag, our eyes met and I smiled awkwardly to him before I ran to the entrance. I heard him shouts while running after me. We caught the attention of the nurses and patients. I heard a man who was also running after me ask him "What happened?"

"She's from the VIP room. We can't lose her or else we were losing our job."

"Miss can you please stop." He shouted. But I didn't listen. I saw someone get out of the cab and I grabbed that opportunity to escape. I quickly went inside and locked the door beside me.

"Sir please start driving." I said with pleading eyes on the driver he just looked at me, I saw the nurse banging the cab's window "You need to finish your treatment." I heard him yell.

"Please, drive sir." I pleaded one more time and he did.

I let out my breath when the hospital disappeared in my sight. The driver doesn't seem to care what just happened so I just told him my address.

"Thank you, sir." I thanked him as soon as I got the money inside of my apartment.

I lean my body against the door and close my eyes, the image of an unknown man flashed in my mind. I didn't remember what happened next when I leaned on his shoulder. All I can remember are his manly perfume and his huge palm that touched every part of me. My eyes opened on that thought, I shook my head. "No, Lilac get a hold of yourself, you didn't know that man." I said and just walked to my kitchen to get some beer.

"What happened here?" I asked myself when I saw my kitchen was clean. "Did I clean it before he knocked on my door?" I just shrugged my shoulder off and opened my fridge but I didn't find anything in there. I forgot, I drank all of my supplies yesterday. I mean an hour ago. I should go buy more of it. But first I need to take a bath, the smell of hospital lingered on my body and clothes.

I removed my clothes and the bandage on my wrist. I saw stitches on it, how many stitches or surgery they perform on my body, it will not heal, the scar of the memories that I have right now. I used my wounded wrist to open the shower, I felt the familiar pang on my wrist when I twisted it to make the shower open. I let the water drip over my body, waterfall above my head along with my tears, I couldn't stop it. Loneliness starts to surround me again.

I wore a plain jean and my usual jacket, I put my hoodie on my head and left the house. I saw a new grocery store nearby; I checked my needs too if I still have so I didn't have to go outside again if ever I needed something to buy. I will also buy a lot of beer, five cans a day aren't enough, I should buy more. I went out and just walked around in this neighborhood.

"Good afternoon, Welcome to our—" I didn't let the woman finish and just grab a cart and push it inside.

"Hi, these items are in our—"

"I can read." I said and grabbed two dozen of my beers and walked out to finish my business here.

The cashier was about to say something but I preceded her in talking.

"I don't need that." I said as I put the items one by one. The cashier shut her mouth.

"one hundred fifty-one and fifty cents ma'am." She said and I handed my card to her.

"Thank you for coming. Hope to see you again." I didn't bother to greet them back.

"What a nasty attitude." I heard someone comment. And I didn't care.

I just walked straight and passed by the staff who wore a weird mascot but I heard something that really caught my attention.

"Hello, Ma'am and Sir would you like to have some of our beer? It's free since we just opened our store." After hearing the word 'beer' my feet automatically took a step backward. I did make sure to not show my face and just look down on the ground before talking.

"Can I have some?" The guy quickly gave me some and just left after I got what I wanted.

Memories. Memories. That keeps hunting me, memories. That keeps playing inside of my head. Memories that I couldn't forget. I let myself drown in memories.