In Just 10 days...

Day one

Years ago.

"Red. Is this really what you want?" Queen mother, Anarosa, my mum asked.
I grabbed a hand full of her dress in my hand as a layed on her lap.

"Yes, mother. I feel my life is meaningless without it. I need someone to understand me, who is perfect, just for me. Not to mention, be on my level of intellectual, strength and eveything to do with a soulmate. " I took a deep breath. "I fight many wars mother. Now it's time for a family. No matter the cost. I will pay it, just for one moment of happiness with the one I'm ment to be with. "

My mother sighed, stroking my long red hair.
"My daughter. We rule a kingdom, where magic is frowned apon. If you choose to release yourself of this one small burden, I won't stop you."
I smiled. A smile of mixed emotions. Sadness, lose, happiness, relief and peace.

As a white witch, future queen and warrior. Life is hard for me.

Dark magic witches, never make thing easier. They loved to start wars and kept adding fuel to the fire but thanks to my mum. I have a moment to relax and find true love and choose myself over my kingdom for once.

"Do what you must soon my beloved daughter. You will be crowned queen soon and I forsee a war coming soon. Make haste and make no mistake. No matter the outcome of your quest. In the end, the kingdom will come first."

I stood, bowing my deepest curtsy, my armour clicking at a sudden movement. "Yes queen mother, I will begin straight away. " I grinned. My young age picking though for the smallest moment. An innocence i was robbed of because of war. "I love you mother with my deepest heart. thank you." I bowed again before rushing out of the room.

'I will create a spell which will take me to my beloved. I will be the spell of a life time.' I thought as I hurriedly to my chambers.

[Months later]

Diary entry
Princess of Flairra       Year xxxx

A war broke out and I was yet again forced into battle.

My coronation is soon ,where i will be crowned queen.

However i feel my spell is only half complete.

It was a very painful experience after casting it on myself, and thus far only had visions of my love.

Side effects at the moment is a massive depletion of my magic and I feel it eating at my life force.
I can't cast a strong enough spell to stop it or fix it.

No to mention, I'm on the battlefield, and I can't ask my mother for help.
I'm stuck like this till the war is over or my correlation in a matter of months

I fear, due to my weighing strength I loose this war.

I loose the opportunity to mean my soulmate and the chance to fix the wrongs of my kingdom.

I pray to the stars all will be well soon.

Entry of
Ruby Roslin Rain of Flairra

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[Present time]

We left the memorial service early.

I couldn't bare to watch anymore of it. I didn't want anyone to know it was my fault.

I sat in bed looking out the window as my parents tried talking to me. I just couldn't focus on them right now.

They trying their best but I dont think their love is enough to fill this emptiness right now.