Continued on from part 1
Song choice - Heather by Conan Gray
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Your POV
Since me and Lauren came back from our heated discussion there has been a thick smoke of tension in the air to which everyone notices.
I was currently sitting at the table with the girls since it's dinner but I was zoning out most times. I guess Lauren's the same since she hasn't spoken up as well, I've catch her staring at me a couple times but whenever I catch her she turns away avoiding my gaze making me sigh every time.
I rest my head on Dinah's shoulder, she knows about what happened between me and Lauren since she found me crying in the bathroom before. She grabbed my hand under the table and squeezed it.
"It's okay, Lauren is an idiot and she'll probably come to her senses soon. Just give her time, trust me" she whispered in my ear
"Okay" I whispered back closing my eyes. I could feel Lauren's eyes my way and it was starting to annoy me so I got up and walked away since I couldn't deal with everything.
I ended up walking around the venue for an hour then realised that I had 30 minutes till I'm on stage so I rushed to hair and makeup to get ready.
As I was putting in my ear plugs I saw Lucy and Lauren holding hands while they were talking to Normani and Ally.
I looked down and sighed sadly, I didn't wanna end up crying again so I went to go grab a bottle of water to calm me down.
"Y/n you're on in 2 minutes" the stage director yelled at me.
I stood by the side of the stage getting a wave of anxiety build up since I was performing my new song, I did some breathing exercises to help calm down.
Usually when this happens Lauren's there to help me but she wasn't, I looked over to her to which she was already staring back at me. Even though things weren't right between us her eyes filled with worry made me calm down in seconds. I gave her a nod then ran up on the stage.
"HEY MIAMI, HOW ARE YALL DOING TONIGHT!!! I yelled excited into the microphone
After that I performed more of my songs, halfway through I decided to perform the new song
"Okay guys, since you have been such a great crowd tonight I'm gonna give you a treat. I'll be performing the song that somehow got leaked, I'm still kind of mad but it's okay. It's gonna be released either way so let's sing shall we" I said laughing a lil then walking over to my stool in the middle of the stage.
I adjusted the microphone stand to reach my level then gave my band a nod to signal to play.
I took a deep breath in closing my eyes, I heard a few screams making me smile knowing that my fans are excited.
I still remember
Third of December
Me in your sweater
You said it looked better
I remember the night me and Lauren were up watching movies cuddling in her bunk. I was cold and she gave me her sweater to wear since I was freezing
On me, than it did you
Only if you knew
How much I liked you
But I watch your eyes, as she
Whenever Lucy would hang out with all of us Lauren would always ignore me, all attention on Lucy and never on me. I wish it was on me instead
Walks by
What a sight for
Sore eyes
Brighter than a
Blue sky
She's got you
Mesmerized
While I die
I opened my eyes again to see the venue filled with flashlights swaying in the air making my heart melt
Why would you ever kiss me?
I'm not even half, as pretty
You gave her your sweater
It's just polyester, but you like her better
Wish I were Heather
Now Lucy wears her sweater, the one that Lauren gave me to use that night.
I turned my attention to the front of the stage seeing Lauren and Lucy cuddled up in the corner not even watching me but talking to each other, I looked down staring at their intertwined hands. I couldn't look away
Watch as she stands with
Her holding your hand
Put your arm 'round her shoulder
Now I'm getting colder
My eyes travelled up to Lauren's eyes, my heart hurting. It's confirmed in my head that Lauren will always choose me as her second not first. Lauren's hand was still with Lucy's, I couldn't help but let the tears fall down making me break away from the microphone for a second. I can't believe I'm fucking crying, damn I need to stop. I wiped my tears away and focused more on the crowd
But how could I hate her?
She's such an angel
But then again, kinda
Wish she were dead, as she
I closed my eyes again breathing in the moment
Walks by
What a sight for
Sore eyes
Brighter than a
Blue sky
She's got you
Mesmerized
While I die
Why would you ever kiss me?
I'm not even half, as pretty
You gave her your sweater
It's just polyester, but you like her better
I wish I were Heather
Wish I were Heather
Wish I were Heather
I turned back to Lauren staring into her eyes while singing the rest of the song. She had such a strange look in her eyes that I couldn't figure out
Why would you ever kiss me?
I'm not even half as pretty
You gave her your sweater
It's just polyester, but you like her better
Wish I were
The sound of the whole crowd screaming and clapping made me release more tears
"Omg thank you, okay let's get over this sad fest and sing some up beat music shall we" I said getting off the stool and grabbing my electric guitar
The girls disappeared for a while, I guess there probably getting ready for the show.
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I ran off the stage pulling out my ears plugs. I was about to run off to grab a bottle of water and a cloth to wipe my sweat off but I was indulged in a hug making me tense up.
I looked down to see a raven head girl, I knew it's Lauren so I slowly hugged back since I knew she wouldn't be letting go sooner
After I realised what was happening I pulled back but it made Lauren's grip stronger making me sigh and pull her back into my arms
"Lauren you're on any second now, let go" I told her
"Can we talk after please" she said lifting her head up
"Only if you let go" I said quietly then turning my head trying to look any where else then her eyes
She grabbed my chin with her finger then cupped my face caressing my cheek with her thumb making my body tense up but soon relaxing
"Okay" she whispered back
As much as I wanted to look away her eyes were pulling me in, her thumb still brushing over my cheek and my hands on her waist. We were having a stare off but then it got cut off by Dinah pulling Lauren's arm
"C'mon Lauren, we're on" she yelled but then turned back to me smirking
Not surprised Hansen
I started walking away but turned back to see Lauren staring at me, I gave her a thumbs up then walked to the bathrooms to shower.
A.n - for part 3 should I make it a happy ending or a sad one. I don't know, help me choose.
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