You wake up, hoping it's not the same usual routine with a roller coaster ride of emotions throughout the day. You want it to be a new day, you want to get surprised, you want to feel good about existing.
You check your phone as usual and there, you're mood is screwed up in the blink of an eye - no message no nothing from that one person you wanted everything from.
You're constantly trying to be okay, thinking about reasons why he hasn't texted you or called you but deep down the pain is getting real, that pain is eating you up that maybe he actually doesn't care to talk with you.
Time passes and so does the speed of your foot, walking here and there, time and again checking your phone.
It's 3 in the afternoon and you thought he'd message you early morning. "Where is he? Why hasn't he left me a message? Will he be safe right now?" So many questions pop up. urghh. You try to calm yourself down but it doesn't get any better. You decide to do something else to stay distracted. You open one of your social media accounts and there he is perfectly smiling and enjoying his company with another girl. You don't know how to react. You don't know if you should be relaxed that he is safe or you don't know if you should get angry that he is with somebody else.
You feel cold you feel weak you feel less appreciated. You're completely shattered. But at the end you know what? You'll keep hopes from the same person. You are going to go with that same person.
