Rosalia's pov
Oh, won't you stay with me?
'Cause you're all I need
This ain't love, it's clear to see
But darling, stay with me
Why am I so emotional?
No, it's not a good look, gain some self control
And deep down I know this never works
But you could lay with me so it doesn't hurt
Oh, won't you stay with me?
'Cause you're all I need
This ain't love, it's clear to see
But darling, stay with me
These lyrics played around in my head the whole time, I would like a second voice that was slowly ripping my heart out as the lyrics became clear to me. This was one of my mother's favorite song, I would always ask her
"Mama why are you listening to such sad songs "
"Lia dear, it is the meaning behind the song, you should appreciate everyone before they are gone forever"
I never understood those words, but surly now I do. Have you ever felt so much heartache that mere physical pain was an almost angelic feeling?
No right? Well that was also me before a week ago when my mom was ripped away from me. Right now I feel like a shell of my past self, absolutely no amount of comfort can make me feel an inch better. Everytime I remember her words I cry harder
"Lia I know you will become a shell when I am gone, but baby please live your life you are too young too mourn me forever, your father needs you please be strong for him baby this is my last wish"
"How mama, please tell me how can I continue living without you, you were always my rock, how can I put on a brave face to the world when I have nothing to live or fight for" I yell as tears cascade down my face, I heard that crying makes you feel better but it has done nothing to me for the past week.
I have no one to turn to, my brother moved away with his wife living me here alone with a non-existent father, I expected my brother to comfort me but he just up and left with that wife of his, how could he? we were supposed to stick together but he just abandoned me as always.
"Rosalia!!!" I heard my father call out
"Yes Papa" I reply wiping my tears and quickly leaving my room to find him hoping he was not hurt
"Baby I know this is hard for you but I just can't live like this anymore" he says with one hand on my shoulder
"I don't understand Papa"
"Dear I am going to move back to my home town, so you can either stay here or we can sell the place and I will give you half the money and you can move on with your life since your brother has clearly done the same" he speaks avoiding my eyes
"No Papa how can you do such, mom would want us to stick together you can't just abandon me I need you" I say with fresh tears falling down my face again
"ROSALIA!! she is gone and I can't act as if I can deal with things, I'm sorry dear but your mum and I actually discussed this and we were very happy when you got the opportunity to leave the country so we could move back to my home town but now it will be your call because I am already leaving here" he was getting frustrated by the minute
"Where is the family that I had before mama passed away, I feel like I don't know any of your anymore, mama would be very disappointed" I scream running back to my room
"Mama why did you leave me, it was always the both of us against the world now I just feel like my head is under water and I can't breathe" the tears are non-stop right now, my eyes hurt so much from cry I didn't realize when I slept off.
Wow guys this was a bit emotional for me, I am try a different kinda writing here. Your comments and votes are truly appreciated 🤗and can i just say Sam Smith is one of my all time favorite artists 😍. Anyway plz vote vote and comment 😁🙏😘.
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