Soulful | Haikyuu!! Fic pt.2 | OC male POV |

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"Ki please don't make this harder then it needs to be-"

"I-I don't need to talk about my feels in a stupid meeting I'm fine!"

"YOU HAD A SEIZURE OREKI I SWEAR TO GOD I CAN'T SEE YOU LIKE THAT EVER AGAIN~!!" Samuel yells at me on the verge of tears and now I'm getting teary because he is. He walks away and my heart breaks as he gets in the car and my jaw starts shaking from how panicked I am but how much in trying to hide it. Kuroo hugs me and squeezes me tightly when he feels how badly I'm shivering. "You're okay Oreki it's just a little meeting."

"But- You're all going- Home- And you're- G-gonna- Leave me here~"

"I'm not going anywhere okay? I'll be right outside the meeting room if you need me."

"No but you'll leave when I'm inside~"

"What makes you think I'd do that?"

"Because you don't l-love me anymore~!" I cling onto him as I breathe shakily and he just stays quiet from shock which makes me feel even worse and assume I'm correct. "What makes you think that?"

"I..." I start to realise I have no point of even thinking that and cling onto him harder when I realise if he did love me before then he really doesn't love me anymore because I just relapsed, put dad through hell, had a seizure because of the relapse and am now going to an AA meeting. "I love you Oreki... I want to have a family with you you know I- Is this why you relapsed?"

"N-no it was everything put together~"

"What do you mean?"

"The exams in doing are stressing me out and even if I put them on my submission form to the college you already got into then they might not even accept me and I need to go to that college because it's the only one close and they have the best volleyball team and gym facilities- And I feel- Like shit- Because I left Karasuno without seeing it through and the others probably hate me- I know Hinatas depressed- And my fucking ankle wont stop aching when I practice so I'll never be able to play properly ever again- And the apartments cost so much that I'll need to save up even more for two years at least just so we can move out and start a family and I can't do it by myself~"

"You're not by yourself Oreki I'm here, both of your dads are here, your friends DON'T hate you and even your little brother is there for cuddles..." I stay quiet and he strokes my back. "What happened baby? We were getting so good with sharing?"

"...Y-you're too strssed trying to find a job a-and dad2 is busy- And dad1 is as well and they've got a baby~"

"That doesn't mean they don't have room for you-"

"But they don't~ Me and dad used to stay up late and eat pizza and just talk but now we dont do any of that because of the baby or his work because he won't take any of my money~ And the only time to spend with dad two was practice and when I see him in the shop but now I don't go to practice and when I do go to the shop he's not working there~!" Both if the dads hear what I'm saying and frown as they start to realise how much they've been putting me on the back burner. "I-I mean I know he's a baby and he needs the attention..." I stop being so open when I realise how selfish I sound and Kuroo pulls out of the hug and wipes the tears away. "But you're allowed to feel like this. You've always been an only child haven't you?" I nod. "Which means that you got attention from one person all of the time. Which means you're going to be feeling anxiety and a bit lonely when you can't be with them as much as before... You'll get used to it..."

"I don't want to get used to it I love them... I loved them first~" He chuckles and pats my back gently as I hug him. "I know you did."

"I helped Ukai with planning to propose as well~"

"You did?"

"Teru just poops every minute." I sniffle and he smiles sadly as I continue. "But I know he needs their attention more then I do..."

"Ki?"

"Mm?" I look up as i stop hugging him. "Movie night and pizza tonight or skyrim and snacks?"

"P-pizza and then skyrim." I run my eyes as I start to calm down and he kisses my forehead. "Now let's go to this meeting okay?" He holds my hand and make sure I dont look like I've been crying as we walk inside. We walk over to the room and he sits down outside the door as in look at him anxiously. "It's okay Ki... You don't have to say anything you don't want to." I kiss him gently and he kisses me back just as softly before patting my butt. "Just think about the food we'll eat later." I nod quickly and start distracting myself with plans of skyrim as I walk inside. "Oh we have another guest! Welcome please take a seat!" I grab a seat and some people make a rookie for me in the circle so I sit down there. "Would you like you introduce yourself?" I just go quiet and the nice lady smiles. "That's okay you don't have to if you don't want to. My name is Mariah." I just continue to stay quiet out of nervousness but I get more and more comfortable.

And then they start speaking about god?

How that we became powerless to alcohol which I agree with.

But then that we need to believe that a power greater then us can restore our sanity.

Now they're saying we're crazy?

"But now we need to realise and give our will and our lives over to the care of God."

Give our lives-?

KILL OURSELVES?

THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE AN AA MEETING NOT A CULT GATHERING WHAT THE FUCK?

I slide my left hand in my pocket and message Kuroo 'SOS' from the pocket. He rings me so I take out my phone. "Oh- Sorry I've got to get to work. Thank you!" I speed walk to the cookies and grab some before leaving quickly. "What happened?" He looks at me concerned and I just hug him. "The speaker wants us to kill ourselves and give our lives over to god. And she wants us to give our sorrow unto him. I don't- God doesn't care- What does this have to do with my alcohol problem?" He just looks at me shocked and I sob annoyed as I hide my face in his chest. "I thought that was supposed to be for alcoholics not conversion therapy."

"I think he found the wrong meeting baby..."

"But what do I do now? Dad will be disappointed I didn't see it through but I couldn't stay in there she just kept on going on and on and everyone else was telling me how good they felt after they started surrendering themselves to god- I'm not giving him my soul I'm fine with it being inside my chest?"

"He'll understand if we go home Oreki."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes I'm sure."

"...I got you a cookie?" I hold his hand as I hold up the cookies with my other hand and he chuckles. "So you stole some cookies?"

"THEY. TRIED. TO. GET. ME. TO. SELL. MY. SOUL. KUROO."

"Fair enough." He takes a cookie with a smile and I smile too as I eat mine and we walk home.