Scars

Playground

June 12th 2016

I've been living with my foster parents for two years now and things have been going great٫ They'd always let me do whatever I wanted but as long as it was safe٫ they bought me the latest toys and all the trendy outfits for kids my age and cooked the best meals.

Whenever I was down about my biological parents they'd always cheer me up with my favorite٫ vanilla ice creame covered in chocolate sause and rainbow sprinkles٫ of course they couldn't replace my parents but they were the best foster parents I could ever ask for.

One day I was looking outside and noticed a playground that was nearby٫ ome we've never been to and I haven't noticed till now. If I ever wanted to go to one it would always be one that was really far and due to it being far no one would really be there except some old couple's enjoying fishing or feeding ducks٫

I would always have about twenty minutes of play time and then we'd have to go back so that one of them could make dinner on time٫ but now that I've noticed this one i had to ask.

"Mom٫ why we don't just go over there to play. Instead of driving all that way and only to have a little bit of time?" she sighed٫ "Well٫ because we want to only have a place where not alot of people go. So it could be just for us". the real reason was because if I showed my arms amd legs it would make kids scream and parents cover their eyes٫ people in this town weren't used to seeing people like this which was sad.

"But٫ can't we just go here I'll have lots of ofher kids to play with and you guys can just watch from thw window" sighing once again٫ she grabbed my hand and walked me over to the playground. I was in shorts and a short sleeved shirt so my scars were noticeable. Mom had just let go of my hand when I ran over to a girl with red hair and pale skin٫ she looked really adorable with her little pink summery outfit٫ I thought she'd want to be my friend but that was before I had tapped her causing her to scream and her mother to take her away.

"Don't you ever come near my daughter٫ do you hear me!?" she yelled٫ when my mom noticed I was crying she ran over to me and told me to go inside but I was too curious and wamted to see what would happen "Who the hell are you yelling at?٫ cause I know it isn't my daughter?!" "Well٫ next time tell your freak of a daughter not to mess with other kids!". Both my mom and the litter girls mom were screamat each other so the parents of the other kids were bringing them back inside٫ I looked over at a boy who was getting taken off the swing by his mother trying to get him away from this scene. the boy looked back at me٫.

Smiling and waving٫ I guess he felt bad for me. I was then being grabbed by the hand of my mom who was still yelling back at the woman. When we finally got inside she scolded me for not listening when she said she didn't wanna take me there and for not going in when she told me to while then caused me to cry since it was the first time seeing her like that. I ran up to my room and cried until I fell asleep.

When I woke up I went out to the restroom٫ when I heard my dad's voice.

"Honey٫ she's still a child we can't get rid of her now. Plus we promised we'd be her parents for the rest of her life and she has nowhere else to go" my heart was racing "she wants to gey rid of me?" I thought٫ "Of course not now٫ when she's old enough we'll leave her here all by herself. she'll be fine with all the money we saved up for her" "why not just get rid of me now?" I washed my hands and was about to go back to my room when my dad called me down for dinner٫ wiping away my tears I hurried down and tried to cover up any sadness.

"Here you go sweetie٫ your favorite" I smiled and thanked him.

Usually we'd all be talking but it was only them this time٫ I was too hurt when the time I'll be the age they think is old enough comes٫ since they weren't specific I was scared.

"Will it be in two years?٫ I'll be 13 by then or maybe when I'm 18 hopefully then cause I'll actually be moving out then" I kept thinking to myself . "Jocelyn٫ is there something wrong?" I lost my train of thought when she asked٫ "Yeah٫ you haven't eaten much is everything alright" "Huh?٫ oh yeah everything's fine I just lost my appetite" "Oh٫ alright you can be excused" "Thank you".