Part 1 - It's complicated

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'nothing is constant in this world neither the people nor the situation' harsh learning that we gain as time passes. sometimes I wonder what would it have been if had done something in that situation, but I would never know what would have happened if only I had some time stone-like doctor strange and saw the future probability of all events, but then again if I did know the future, I didn't have the wisdom to follow the path which would have led me to success

some times these thoughts and emotions that come along it becomes overwhelming i feel to cry scream yell kill

but if only, I have cried so many times that now tears don't drop from my eyes. 

i should be hating him , hating him for using me for his own means hating him for snatching something from me which i never got a chance to hold in my arms

but i couldn't, a part of me loathed him and at same time another part of me yearned for him

and thats the reason that i have been away from this place for so long

2 years 9 months 28 days and 16 hours 

that was quite accurate , it was because there was not even day when i didn't think of him didn't add another reason to hate him

plenty of memories of past travelled through my head as I stood in front of this cafe

the eve's adobe, a cafe that was a dream of my best friend 

"how long are you gone stand at distance and watch it just walk in" Abhinav said

I sighed 

I was tempted to walk in and greet her and say I missed her but I couldn't and would never 

"can't" the words rolled down my tongue

Abhinav gave a frustrated sigh

"how long are you going to be like this," he asked

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"how long are you going to be like this," he asked

I didn't answer because I didn't have one 

if that day if it was not of Abhinav I wouldn't have been alive today, without questioning me he stood there by my side as my rock through rough and tough times 

when it should have been him but it was Abhinav there when I needed someone

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life is bitch and trusts me that's a harsh truth you'll learn in a harsh way

when you feel everything is going perfect, life throws a situation at you which spins off everything you have known, thrashes everything you have achieved, and pushes you back to zero, its like a snake and ladder game when you think you are going to win and at 98 you step on snake and fall down

that's most of the situations in life are but there is an advantage in life, in snake and ladder game you have to follow rules but in life, you follow the rules which you feel like following

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