Dawn After Dusk

Part 2- old working place

what do you name that feeling

when you are all numb and stuck in a moment bad 

it happened today with me when I was driving towards my office

I saw her, but I am not sure if it was her

I am hanging in a confusion about my thoughts

my mind says it was an illusion and my heart, God knows what it felt then, joy maybe

I am speaking like my heart is whole lot different person as I am but that's kind of true because right now my heart and I who I am currently are two different specimens altogether

I am feeling kind of sick like I badly wanna punch someone and take all that frustration out

and I wish I could do that right now at this moment

but I am bound to certain responsibilities and I am going to do that

because those are more important to me than the person because of whom my mind travelled to that turmoil

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each day I feel like I should leave

I can't survive here

those memories make me feel overwhelming, everything is more than I can handle

but then I say myself I have dealt with worst of all and I can deal with this to

one more week and I'll leave

and that's true I came here for a reason and reason was my property's legal matters once the legalities are over,  I'll be free to leave

it's been two days that I have been stuck in my hotel room, Abhinav has been constantly ringing me, asking me to go out with him or myself at least but I am doing none

but finally, I have decided to surprise him at his office today

grinning in excitement to meet I walked inside the premise of building

did I tell you he is an event planner

if I didn't I am telling now

and that's how he and I met

I had applied for an internship at an event planning company and turned out Abhinav's dad owned that company

during the time we worked together we became quite close to eachother

and from then we have been best friends

"hi Riya" I greeted the receptionist and the look on her face was worth seeing

she was quite shocked seeing me and after a moment she rushed towards me and engulfed me in a hug

"oh god I missed you so much where have you been all these years girl" 

breaking hug we spoke for a few minutes exchanged numbers and promised to spend some time along before I left

moving in I saw more familiar faces and most seemed surprised and happy to see me

I truly missed this place

ok speaking truly I didn't expect this kind of reaction from most of the people here, they were coming and greeting me

I was having a lot of attention and my friends of past kept on telling me stories of what was happening

"what's happening here" we heard a loud voice and everyone's attention turned towards it

it was Abhinav's dad

"hello there Ex-boss," I said in a cheerful tone

he smiled seeing me but then glared at rest of his staff