Don't Just Say It; You Should Sing My Name

Chapter 22: "You Left?!" "He Left..."

I was kissing Vic for the second time that I remembered. We were sitting on my bed, and he kissed me back... He never pushed me away. When we finally stopped, it was a natural stop. It just happened. We both pulled away at the same exact time.

I stared at Vic for a few seconds. I was totally thrown off when I realized what happened. When he touched my cheek, I started to smile,” Vic…”

“I’m sorry…” He was slightly blushing. It was pretty adorable. “Don’t be. Please…”

“I… I should go…” Vic stood up and I immediately frowned.

“Vic…” I stood up, gently grabbing his arm, “Please stay…” I couldn’t believe he was doing this. He was completely toying with my emotions. Something I didn’t need at all. Especially not with a baby on the way. “I can’t…” He wrenched his arm away and went to the front door. I quickly chased after him, “I’ll see you tomorrow, r-right…?”

“Of course…” And just like that, Vic took off in his car and left. He went home. So I went back inside, dragging myself back up to my room, and laid on my bed, trying not to cry.

[Vic’s P.O.V.]

 I couldn’t get home fast enough. I pretty much ran inside, almost slamming into Jaime as I flew into the kitchen. “Whoa! Where’s the fire, Smokey?”

“I kissed her.”

“What?” He was clearly confused.

“I kissed her! I kissed Jez!” I was so pissed at myself. I didn’t love her at all. I couldn’t. I didn’t even really know her. And I don’t need a baby that isn’t mine.

“You kissed Jezabelle? And then what happened?!”

“I left…”

“YOU LEFT?!?! You can’t do that!!! You totally fucked her over! Do you know how much she hurts because of you?!”

“I KNOW, JAIME! OKAY?! I don’t know what to do… I still don’t really think it’s my kid… I don’t need a kid, and I don’t know how I feel about her…” I really didn’t. I needed to figure things out…

“You need to figure it out. And FAST, man. Dude, what if it turns out in a couple days you find out you ARE the dad? Because you ARE.”

“Well I’ll cross that bridge if I get to it. All I know for a fact is that I’d pay child support. Other than that, I have no fucking clue.”

“Figure it out. Fast,” Jaime pulled out his phone, “Serenity just texted me. Apparently she got a call from Jezabelle. And Jezabelle is in tears. Good going.” He walked away, presumably to his room. I just grabbed a beer and sighed. I really needed to figure this out. He was right. I couldn’t be falling for her. I couldn’t be… But I meant what I told her. I meant it all… She’s way too beautiful to cry. And she and that baby deserve better… I kind of wanted to stick around if for nothing else than to prove her father wrong. That I wouldn’t hurt her. But if I did that… It WOULD hurt her. It would hurt her more than anything I could do at this point. Because I know she didn’t expect me to stick around.

[Jezabelle’s P.O.V.]

 I kept fucking falling for it!! I kept falling for his stupid tricks!! WHY! It was bullshit! My baby’s father is Vic, whether he believes it or not. And he’ll find out in a couple days. But even when he does, he won’t stick around. And that’s okay. I’ll just enjoy the time I have with him now… Because I want him. I really do. I want to be with him. I just can’t. And by no fault of my own. Vic told me he’d be trying to support me, trying to get me out of the house more often… That’s a start. We can at least be friends. I guess I’m fine with that…

I sighed, calming down a little. It’s okay… It’ll be okay… I picked up my phone and called Serenity. It took her forever to pick up. “Serenityyyyyy!!!” I whined.

“What’s wrong, Sweetie?” I could tell she was frowning.

“I kissed Vic… We kissed and… And I don’t even know anymore. He just left…”

She sighed, “I heard… I was just on the phone with Jaime and he told me.”

“Wait… He saw?!” I knew I thought someone was watching us! God dammit… Serenity sounded confused, “Um, no…? Vic came home and told him about it.”

“He did?” Why would Vic do that?

“Because he tells Jaime and the guys everything. Because they live together. Because he’s a jerk.”

I laughed, “Got that right… I’m sick of this,” I sniffled.

“I know, Bunny… Just… You’ve had a busy day. Jaime told me what all happened, so I know how rough today has been. You just need to get some rest. Okay? I’ll come over tomorrow, I promise.” I could tell she was tired. Probably tired of my shit… I felt bad now.

“Yeah, of course… Sorry I bugged you, Seren…” I was about to hang up wen I heard Serenity start her sass, “Wait, wait, wait. Now hold up! Sorry that you “bugged” me? “Bugged” me?! Ya ain’t buggin’ me, Bunny. You’re practically my sister! Stop being a doof,” I could hear the smile in her voice.

“If you’re sure…” I started to smile too.

“Of course I’m sure! Now you, Missy, gotta sleep for that little baby! I’ll be the damn father if Victor won’t!” We started laughing hard, but before long, Serenity pushed me more, “Come on. Into bed. Love you!”

“Love you too,” I laughed, “I’ll see you tomorrow.”

“Of course you will!” Serenity and I both hung up. And since I had nothing better to do, I actually went to bed. Shocker!

As I put on my tank-top and yoga pants that I sleep in, I looked myself over in the mirror. I was definitely starting to get a bit of a belly. My tank-top was a bit snug and my boobs were already starting to grow. I was doomed… But it would be worth it in the end. Right? I laid in bed, trying to slow my racing thoughts, and finally fell asleep after going through 2 whole My Chemical Romance albums.

Next thing I knew, I awoke to a loud crash in my room. I sprang up in bed, grabbing my hunting knife from my side-table drawer, ready for whatever – or WHOever – made that noise.