Future Queen

thinkin about you¹⁹

Brandons pov:

I couldnt believe what the principal was telling us

Suddently i saw billies arm fall from the chairs arm and i looked at her seeing she was totally out

Brandon: BILLIE PASSED OUT-i screamed cuz other wise they wouldnt hear since zoe is screaming. The principal stood up immediately trying to help while gawa ran to get the nurse-billie? Billie open your eyes cmon-i said sighly hitting her face-billie cmon-gawa came back w the nurse, she had a cup w something on it

Nurse: let me put this on her mouth-she put wtv that was on billies mouth and she gasped waking up-its okay, breath billie

Billie: im- im sorry, i just had this dream that drew died, super stupid, im fine-she said sitting back at the chair

Nurse: im gonna leave this here in case any one passes out again-the principal sighed as the nurse left

Principal: it wasnt a dream billie-he said and billie looked at all of us, her gaze stopping at zoe

Billie: shes dead?-she asked zoe while a tear ran down. Zoe nodded while crying and billie looked at me and then at the principal and more tears started to come out

Principal: she also left a note for her parents and, this letter to you billie-he said giving her a little envelope. I saw billies shaky hand grab it before she stood up grabbing her bag and starting to leave

Billie: im going home-she said before walking out

Zoe: anyone at this school is seeing my face ever again-zoe said leaving too as i heard the principal sigh

Principal: you guys can stay home for the rest of the week, relax a little

Prince: drew died and you want us to be home relaxing?-prince said before standing up and leaving as well

Billies pov:

Patrick: billie! Youre home earlier- whats wrong?-my dad said as he saw me walking into the house-BILLIE-

Billie: DREW IS DEAD-i cut him-MY BESTFRIEND IS D, E, A, D! DEAD! IM NEVER SEEING HER AGAIN OR HUGGING HER OR CALLING HER MY BABY, IM NEVER DOING NOTHING OF THAT EVER AGAIN DAD, SHES GONE!-i screamed while crying and he hugged me tight. Why? Why drew?

A few hours later

I woke up in my bed, guess i ended up sleeping. My head is hurting a lot

I decided to read the letter drew left me

"Dear billie

No, too cliche

Stupid billie, when you read this letter i wont be around anymore, i'll be hanging out w your brother lol

Anyways

I wanted to do this letter to tell the part of me you didnt know

I've liked you since i met you! Since day one. But ofc you never liked me and thats okay ion blame you.

You were everything i wished for a best friend. Everything. But i didnt want to be your best friend. I wanted more, and knowing that that would never happen? That was slowly killing me. When you got w brandon i was happy for you but i was dying in the inside and when you got pregnant, omfg, that killed me for all. But i still wanted to be there for you you know. I was gonna do this once the baby was at least one year old but i cant. Dont get me wrong, its not your fault bil

I was raped three times on the last 4 years, besides being molested when i was younger. No one knows it. The last time i was raped was a day after we found out you were pregnant. That was it for me. I cant handle that i only feel happy when im around you. Every time jm w someone else im not me. Im not happy im just pretending to be. Every happy moment of my life was w you but ik you cant make me happy forever. One day youre gonna get married, have your kids, become a queen. You wont even remember me

I cant live w the fact that i am this emotionally dependent on someone. At first i thought it was just a lil crush and it would soon be gone but it never did. I am in love w you billie eilish pirate baird oconnell. But ik we could never have something and ik that your true love is brandon.

and billie? He deserves to know hes gonna be a father

In any way i want you to feel guilty. Cuz it wasnt your fault! It was me and the fact that i am the weakest b*tch ever lmao

I cant handle things billie. Im not a super bad ass b*tch like you. And it got to a point where i cant avoid to just live w everything that happened w me. I cant do it and im too ashamed to talk to someone ab it. Why do you think im telling you this on a letter lmaoo

Thats the truth bil, im a p*ssy

I run away from things

Having you as my bestfriend was the best thing that ever happened to me. If you werent here i would be dead ages ago but you were always there and you always seemed to know that something was wrong, maybe you didnt know what but you knew something was wrong and you took care of me. You were my angel billie. You'll always be my angel

Remember, "always and forever"

Me and finneas will be looking after you over here.

I love you for infinity baby

W soooooooooo much love

Drew♡"

Im destroyed
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A/n: just noticed this book has more views than detective oconnell, damn