[ 𝙛𝙧𝙖𝙜𝙞𝙡𝙚 ] - 𝑠𝑘𝑒𝑝𝑛𝑜𝑏𝑎𝑙𝑑𝑒 ☹︎

date

zak has finally finished his youtube video, he hasn't felt motivated in a while. he was proud that he actually finished it, he uploaded his video and went to lay on his bed.

he felt numb... he felt empty...

"hey zak! im going out on a date! can you help me pick my outfit? im kinda nervous" dave says bursting through the door with a huge smile on his face.

the small boys heart had broken in half, he already knew that he would get hurt. that's what love does, it hurt you but zak couldn't help himself but to love the tall boy.

"oh s-sure" zak says helping dave choose a outfit, the boy was hurting every second he brought her name out. "what if she doesn't like me? she is way to pretty look!" the tall boy says showing the small boy a oic if her.

zak couldn't lie, she was perfect for him. the small boy knew dave would never see him that way he sees him, im ugly, fat, worthless, stupid those four words raced into his head.

he felt his whole world stopped, he hears a faint whisper in his ears. zak knew what was going on, he didn't want it to happen now... not next to dave.

"yeah she completes him, I even see them getting married"

the small boy keeps quiet trying to ignore the voice in his head, "I think I like this outfit, um zak can you drop me off im kinda nervous and I need your company" dave says giving his hair.

"stop thinking about him, he's only using you like darryl did"

"stop..." the small boy mumbles, he didn't want to hear that name again, darryl.

"he he he you really hate that name huh? i mean I can see why darryl was cheating on you i mean your not even worth to date"

"S-SHUT UP!! PLEASE JUST SHUT U-UP!" the small boy shouts while tears stream down his face, dave looks at the boy in confusion and worry.

"zak? are you okay? why are you crying?"

"i-im sorry d-dave i d-didn't mean to s-say those t-things"

"why did you say it?"

"Yeah why did you say that? is it because you still miss darryl? i know you hate those words. darryl cheated on you"

"P-PLEASE JUST S-SHUT U-UP IM S-SORRY IM NOT G-GOOD E-E-ENOUGH FOR YOU!" the small boy says trembling in fear, tears stream down his cheeks.

"good enough for me? zak do you l-like m-me?" dave says stuttering on his words, the small boy could tell that dave wasn't comfortable about it.

stupid STUPID!! YOUR A STUPID IDIOT!! the boy mentality tells himself, he wipes his tears and smiles at dave.

"no I'm sorry dave! i was just mad and that's why I told you this things, oh but you look good in that outfit she will totally love it" dave notices the sudden change in just 5 seconds.

the tall boy could see that he was hurting, he was confused on why he is hiding it so well but who was he talking to?

"uh thanks but i think I should stay here with you... you don't seem alright I'll just cancel the-

the small boy hugs dave, "no im alright dave you should go to your date I can already tell you guys are s-soulmates!!".

"do you really mean it? i hope she is my soulmate too but call me if something happens alright?" dave wraps his arms around zak, "i will now don't keep her waiting dave".

the tall boy gives him a huge smile and left, he was happy for dave to find someone for him but the same time he was hurt deeply.

he wanted to run away from his feelings, stupid feelings why can't you just leave me alone?! my fucking heart wants to love people that don't love me back the boy thought.

he then heard the voices coming in again, and this time the small boy sees a scary shadow in the corner of the room.

"W-WHO THE H-HECK ARE YOU?!" zak says backing up as the "thing" comes closer to him.

"I'm the person that is always in your head, it's nice to finally meet you" the shadow figure says pulling his hand out with a evil smile on his face.

"why don't y-you just l-l-leave me alone!" the small boy says weeping in fear and sadness.

"I can't do that... you see im apart of you im your negative thoughts formed into one which is me" the shadow says laughing at the end of his sentence, he lifts the small boys chin up so that he could see its tears.

"h-his c-can i make you g-go away" the small boy says giving up.

"oh it's very simple, to get rid of me you have to get rid of yourself" the shadow says as his smile grows wider and wider.

"if thats what ur takes okay I'll do it" the small boy says as the shadow lets go of his chin harshly.

"let's begin shall we?"