[ 𝙛𝙧𝙖𝙜𝙞𝙡𝙚 ] - 𝑠𝑘𝑒𝑝𝑛𝑜𝑏𝑎𝑙𝑑𝑒 ☹︎

attempt

⚠️ Warning!!! If you are uncomfortable about suicidal thoughts, and attempt of sucide then please skip ⚠️

"let's begin shall we?"

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dave was a bit nervous, he didn't know why the girl and him both been friends since middle school. dave did find the girl attractive and really kind, he was excited to meet her but at the same time he was nervous.

he knocked on her door, he felt his palms starting to sweat.

"HEY!! DAVE ITS BEEN SO LONG" the girl says hugging dave tightly, the tall boys heart was pounding like it was running a marathon.

"hey ella! I know it's been so long how have you been?" the tall boy asks keeping his eyes on her face, her face is so pretty... the boy thought.

"come on in! I made some fresh baked cookies for us" ella says letting dave inside her home, dave quickly went to grab a cookie, she knew that those were daves favorite kind of cookies.

the two both sit on the couch eating the chocolate chip cookies, "let's troll some people on a Minecraft server" ella says turning on her PS4.

"haha we should prank some of my friends if they are playing Minecraft" the tall boy says, not taking his eyes off of the girl.

I don't want this day to end the tall boy thought.

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I want this day to end already... the small boy thought, he was on his 12th cut and the boy felt like he was gonna faint.

"12 cuts? better then what you did last time, but you can do better" the shadow figure says.

"I-I d-don't understand w-why d-do i f-f-fall in *hic* love w-with p-p-people i know w-won't l-love me" the small boy says breaking down again, not carrying that his blood is dripping all over on his clothes and floor.

"what a stupid heart you got, i always thought darryl was your soulmate but i guess he never loved you i can see why" the shadow figure says laughing at the boys pain.

the boy starts trembling in fear of himself, he knew he had feelings for dave but he didn't wanna go through the whole darryl thing all over again.

"what the fuck is this?!"

the small boy froze, he recognized that voice it was dave.

"your fucking crazy!" dave says looking at me like im not a normal human being, "d-dave n-no i-i-it's nothing w-what it l-looks l-like i-

"don't come near me!" dave says backing away looking at the boys deep cuts on his arms, "n-n-no dave i-

"your fucking weird!! i read through your diary you like me?! you are a fucking fag you should kill yourself JUST KILL YOURSELF ALREADY" dave says leaving the house.

the boy stays quiet sitting on the floor, showing no emotion or reaction. "heh your going a bit crazy eh?" the shadow says, the boy doesn't say anything and just sits there with no reaction.

"Your fucking stupid aren't you? that was a hallucination you dumb fuck".

the small boy gets up from the floor and locks himself in his room without saying a word, the boy walks into his bathroom and rummages through all his cabinets until he stumble upon a bottle of pills.

I hate this feeling... I'm never gonna be loved I'm gonna be lonely forever... the boy thought admiring at the pills, the boy thinking that downing these ten small pills can just kills you painlessly.

"Admiring at those pills? Why don't you stop staring at them and fucking down them all" the shadow says picking the boy up by his neck and throwing the small boy on the ground as tears threaten to fall down his cheek.

Whenever the small boy thinks of actually going through with sucide, his shadow which are his negative emotions and thoughts into one starts to become more violent towards the poor boy.

zak lays on the floor and opening the cap of the bottle, he dumps fifth teen pills in the palms of his hands admiring at them thinking about all of the horrible horrible memories.

"hey darryl you have always been late home for over a month now, why is that?" the small boy asks pouting at him. "sorry baby I have just been super busy and have to work late sometimes" darryl says paying more attention to the tv then zak.

"but one of my friends work there and tell me you leave exactly at 8 pm but you come home at 10 pm... darryl w-

"I think we should just drop it" the tall boy says in a serious tone, "w-what? but darryl where have you been g-

"ZAK I SAID JUST DROP IT!!" darryl yells at the small boy in a harsh tone and slaps the boy harshly on his cheek, the small boy felt hurt. "I-I'm s-sorry..." the boy gets up with tears in his eyes starts walking towards there room.

zak stopped in his foot steps until he felt a pair of hands brings the small boy into his brace for a hug, "I'm sorry baby... I'm just really tired and you know when I'm tired I get grumpy" the tall boy lifts his boyfriends chin up placing kisses every where on his face.

the small boy starts crying and hugging the tall boy tightly.

"Now it's my turn to end it all".

to be continued...