DREAMNOTFOUND ONESHOTS

Love Me (Sick of Loosing Soulmates)

This is going to be a songfic ting. Play the video from 4:58 when the guitar starts.

You don't have to read out the lyrics they're just what's supposed to play depending on what paragraph you're on.

TW S/H and suicide 

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George's POV

I watched as he walked towards me with a big grin on his face, "Guess what? She asked me out!" I had never seen you so happy before. "That's great I'm happy for you."  I could feel tears filling my eyes almost threatening to fall, "I- um I've gotta go my mum needs me." I turned around feeling my tears fall down my face.

What a strange being you are,

I tried to wipe them away but that only more fell. When I got home I didn't bother taking off my shoes I just when straight upstairs to my room.

God knows where I would be if you hadn't found me sitting all alone in the dark,

 I let out a quiet sob covering my mouth, tears running down my face, Why Clay? I need you I miss you. You're always hanging out with her. It's like I don't even exist to you anymore. It's like I never mattered. 

A dumb screenshot of youth,

I miss you. your smell, your laugh, your hugs.

Watch how a cold broken teen will desperately lean to the superglued human of proof,

I had no energy I just sat against my door and cried.

What the hell would I be without you,

I walked to my bathroom and looked at myself in my mirror. I feel incomplete without you. Worthless. Why would he ever love me? I'm disgusting.

Brave face talk so lightly hide the truth,

 I'm always sad, I don't eat. God, he's probably sick of looking after me. Having to constantly care about me. God, he doesn't want me.

Hide the truth,

I roll up my sleeve revealing my old cuts and grabbing my blade,

Cause I'm sick of losing soulmates so where do we begin,

Fuck you for leaving Clay. I up look at myself and fuck you for caring about him.

I can finally see you're as fucked up as me so how do we win,

I drag the blade across my arm watching as the blood slowly seeped out. Fuck you, Clay! I do another, Fuck you! and another Fuck you!  and another.

Yeah, I'm sick of losing soulmates won't be alone again,

I drop my blade in fear looking back at myself watching the blood run down my arm, "What is wrong with me?" I grabbed a cloth and wrapped it around my arm the tears still running down my face.

I can finally see you're as fucked up as me so how do we win,

"What is wrong with me?"

. . .

I walked to my bed lying on it and cried letting little sobs escape my mouth and soon falling asleep. I Love you, Clay

We will grow old as friends,

I walked to the front of the school where he usually stays in the morning. I heard giggling that sounded like him around the corner "Clay?" My heart dropped, it was him, kissing her.

I've promised that before so what's one more, In our grey-haired circle, waiting for the end,

I turned around and ran out of the school. I just kept running feeling my eyes well up, fuck, I'm so fucking weak, "George wait! Where are you going?" Fuck, why does he do this to me? He grabbed my shoulder spinning me around, "What the fuck do you want Clay? Please." 

Time and hearts will wear us thin,

Finally, I broke; tears running down my face, loud sobs leaving my mouth, my legs shaking ready to fall. I look up to him, "Why?" 

So which path will you take, 'cause we both know a break does exactly what it says on the tin,

"Why what? What did I do?" I ripped my arm away from him, turning around and walking away, "What the fuck George! Tell me! Tell me what I did to you!" More sobs escaped from my mouth as I hugged myself. I felt people staring at us, "George!" 

What the hell would I be, without you,

 I feel so alone. You don't care about me anymore. So why do I still care about you?

Brave face talk so lightly hide the truth,

I make it to the forest looking back to see if he had followed me. He didn't. Why? More tears roll down my face as I drop to my knees, crying and grabbing my blade.

'Cause I'm sick of losing soulmates, so where do we begin,

 "Clay why don't you love me? Why are you with her?" I let out a few sobs choking on my words, rolling up my leave.

I can finally see, you're as fucked up as me so how do we win,

 "Why do I feel this way about you?" I run the blade across my wrist, "Why don't you feel this way about me?" I cut into my wrist again, "Why Clay?" and again, "Why?"

Yeah, I'm sick of losing soulmates, won't be alone again, I can finally see, you're as fucked up as me so how do we win,

"George? Where are you?" I turn to see Clay walking around. Still, looking for me? Fuck. I roll down my sleeves and get up to leave. "Clay?" I walk up to him, "Oh my god I've been looking for you." He pulled me into a hug but I push away, "Clay do you love me?" He looks at me confused, "Yes of course!" He says wiping the tears off my face with his thumb, "But do you love me as I love you." I say leaning in feeling slightly dizzy.

I won't take no for an answer,

He starts leaning in too,

I won't take no for an answer,

Our lips touch,

I won't take no for an answer,

I feel faint,

I won't take no for an answer,

He pulled me in deepening the kiss,

I won't take no,

I start losing my grip and stop kissing back,

No, I won't take no,

What's happening to me?

'Cause I'm sick of losing soulmates, so where do we begin,

"George! Wake up!" I feel Clay shaking me but my body refuses to move.

I can finally see, you're as fucked up as me so how do we win,

"Um yes! An ambulance, Please he's losing blood" I can hear Clay, Crying? Why?

Yeah, I'm sick of losing soulmates, won't be alone again,

"Please George! Don't go! I'm here" I hear sirens, "Please step away from the boy."  A woman says "No! I need to be with him! Please!" I feel like I'm flying my body is giving up. "He's gone." "No! No! He can't be! George, listen to me I'm here wake up!"

I can finally see, you're as fucked up as me,

"George! Look at me! Please! Wake up!"

So how do we win?