Adopted by Griffen and sway la

panic attack

Still Joshs POV

I walk up the stairs preparing myself to comfort Lilly.

Lillys POV

As soon as I plopped down on my bed I had a sudden urge to drink. I ran to my closet and closed the doors. I ran to the drawer with the vodka and grabbed the vodka out. I took 1 sip then I hear someone walk into my room. I heard

J- Lilly where are you

Uhh what do I say oh I have an idea

L- Im in my closet changing

Then I took another sip of vodka. I sat there while it burned my throat.

J- Lilly are you sure. Please don't hurt yourself again. Actually I am coming in.

I quickly tried to hide the Vodka but it was too late. He opened the door and

J- Oh good your fine. Wait Lilly whats that behind your back.

L- Nothing. Get out so I can change.

He walked over to me and grabbed the bottle and looked at it. He was shocked, he thought I was a good kid cuz I never cursed around the boys but I am soo inappropriate in my head.

J- This bottle is half empty. Where did you get it from have you drank this all in the past two days you have been here?

After I was bombarded with questions all I could say was

L- Uhh idk

J- Griff come here

Oh gosh Im going to get yelled at but good thing I learned to not cry when I get untrouble cuz at the orphanage Ms. Bitch would get me introuble and yell at me all the time.

G- Coming

I hear foot steps leading to my room so I prepare to get yelled at. Griffen walks in and stares at the bottle of vodka and gets a mad look on his face then looks at me. I smirk a bit cuz I am a bit tipsy. He gives me a death stare then

G- Lilly what the fuck were you thinking and where did you get it.

L- Idk I just wanted to have fun sorry. And I got it from my ex from the orphanage. We broke up 2 days before I left the orphanage.

G- Is that what you snuck into your bag the day I adopted you?

L- Uhh yeah

G- Omg your unbelievable. Your 13 you shouldn't be doing this stuff. Now I am going to tell the rest of the boys. Boys get in here.

Tb- Coming

I hear all the foot steps coming to my room. They walk in and

B- Lilly did you drink half of that bottle?

L- Uhh yeah

I said quietly

Jxdn- Why would you do this

L- Cuz I was depressed and bored. Also I just wanted to have fun.

Bl- Ope

N- Oh

G- Lilly go sit on your bed

L- OookK what ever you say GriFfen

He rolled his eyes and the boys and him started searching my room for more alcohol. Then I remembered the condoms. I face palmed myself. I saw Noah approach the drawer and I prepared to get embarrassed. He opened the drawer and

N- *gasp*

J- What is it

N- Umm there is some xs size condoms in here

They all turn to me and I look down

G- Where the fuck did you get these from and have you umm used them

L- Uhh no and I found them in your room

I giggle a bit cuz I am slightly tipsy 

B- Griffens got a small pepe *laughs*

Griffen gave him a death stare

B- Oh sorry

Bl- Is that what you were doing in Griffens room that one day

L- uhh yeah

Jxdn- why did you take them were you planning on uhh you know

L- I was drunk when I took them so thats why I guess

G- Lilly if you do this one more fucking time I swear to god you are going to be grounded for a fucking year! Do I make my self clear!

He shouted in my face then stormed out and it brought back memories

Lillys POV from 2 years ago with her adoptive dad ⚠Abuse⚠

Ad- Lilly if you refuse to strip one more fucking time I swear to god Im going to fucking kill you! Do I make myself fucking clear you whore!

Then he stormed out
🚫Its over🛇

⚠Panic attack/ mental illness⚠

Lillys POV, back to present
My heart starts to beat really fast then my breathing gets heavy and then I can't breathe. I start shaking, then  I start crying and I can hear

Jxdn- Shes having a panic attack!

When I heard that it got worse and

L- I can't breathe help I can't breathe help I can't breathe help please

B-Jaden you made it worse

Noah comes over and hugs me but that reminds me of my dad so I squirm out of his grip and wiggle to the corner. I yelp

L- I can't breathe help josh I can't breathe josh please

I feel a comforting pair of arms rap around me and I start to calm down. I start squeezing Josh tightly and my shaking stops. I can breathe again but I continue crying into Joshes arms for about 5 minutes. Everyone is just staring. I see Griffen walk in and then I put my head back in my knees cuz he reminds me of my old dad. Then I hear whispering

Bl- Guys we should leave cuz I think were making it worse but Josh stay

I see them all leave and over about 5 minutes later I am back to normal. Josh and I get off the floor and sit on my bed.

J- So what triggered your panic attack

L- Well um when Griffen yelled at me it brought back a memory of my old dad then when Jaden yelled shes having a panic attack that made it worse. Then when Noah hugged me it reminded me of my dad again and that made it even worse.

J- Oh Im so sorry baby girl. I will talk to Griffen and the boys and tell them your triggers so it doesn't happen again.

L- Ok thanks. I am going to bed good night

J- Luv u night

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